Here's the Deal Today...

Message Last night..angry.

Message Today...feeling sorry for myself a little.

So all day I cannot get it out of my head that I fucked up last night, and everyone who knows about it told me I was foolish, and yes, thank you folks for reminding me. I was good and bloated. So student senate execs were there, and so now that I fucked up i am afraid they'll look down on me. Oh well. Still, those prick baseball players were saying shit right away...bah, typical 19-20 year olds.

To blow off some steem, I read a little today. Don't read much. I guess it's cool to read to get absorbed into a different demension from the world, just where i needed to be. reading a book for a class actually, so :-S. Want to thank the ladies for intiving me to the library today to join them to a study group so we can be assured we will do damn good with finals rather then doing a half ass job, like i do with life.

Walking back from the library, reality kicks in again, and here's how I see myself:

definition of J2K: always has done a half ass job with whatever he does, bank account suffers from alcohlism, meets the wrong women at wrong places, up for a good time and can be overly jolly that can be trouble.

More definitions to come...

BSU: the lake, the drinking, the life. Will it ever get any better than this?

-J2K