Sick of this life..not that you cared....

I'm alone....

I don't think i'm secure with myself or never will be to start a relationship again.

met a girl tongiht. She seemed too awesome for me. We have a date tomorrow at the Nelsons (???) heard of it before from ginger, jackie (call her jacks) and smo' (steph)...pretty overwhelmed by it.

See how it goes....we had some deep, serious conversations tonight and was told that i like any other guy looks forward to sex.

So whoopidy fucking doo...i like sex.

What if I like this girl?

She also pointed out that:

a.) I have low-self esteem

b.) insecure (some other girl pointed that out to me but for respect issues, i will not display her name.)

c.) she noticed that I once loved someone who broke my heart and am very cautious...

(That'd be laura..she is now living a miserabl life and is secluded from her family cuz her dead-beat fuck-friend is an un-employed, middle aged loser who will never amount to anything. They are going to move to the cities too. Good luck! I still get urges to harass her on the phone but not worth it. Thank God I don't have to see her face anymore in the near future!)


So are are girls pointing out my downfalls to bring me down or help me out...who the fuck knows. how do i got about it if a girl points out my downfalls? I cannot improve overnight for christ's sakes. It's like they are not patient with it. Hell am I to do about it? Sucks ass, friends, it sucks ass.

At least I'm wise. AT least i won't take shit. Had it I have had it!!

I have fucking had it!!

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