I'm The Only Witness To the Nature of My Crime...

I feel as if no one truly knows me. Some see the good side such as those international students, and see the friendly me, and act polite and such. No way, I hate that but Sure I'll do the polite thing anyway. But behind their back, sometimes I have nothing nice to say about some of them, who remain nameless.


Sometimes I wish I would be like "dumbass doesn't know much about the world even though he lived here since '98', makes ppl feel sorry for him, mooching off from other people. Well my friend, if I had it my way either get a job or take your refugee ass back where you came from and quit being a goddmaned, irresponsible parasite!!!"

What else comes to mind... whenever I travel the highway, i get the urge to knock the motorcyclists off the road. Haha!! Ain't It Fun?



I once hacked into someone's website and his biker-family was out to get me....ohhhhh never do that!

I tend to get into fights when i am drunk (well came close to all of them but someday i'm sure with my big mouth i'll get the living daylights beaten out of me.) Yep, a black guy just about killed my ass for calling him brother....I also pit people against eachother, cuz i live for that sort of thing...it's entertaining i must say. Just go back and forth, be like "he said this" or "she said this" and get people going....hahaha...so elementary, but that's just me.

Fuck, i'm sure my ex can tell you some stuff about me that i proudly admit saying some of the stuff that I said to her, and I regret saying a lot of shit, but heh! It is what helps me to defeat her in my mind, and i think i scarred the bitch for life but what can i say? we all have to have a defense mechanism.

When I work, without a doubt i bring some food home....

I piss on sidewalks drunk downtown bemidji, and tell people to back away if they are too paronoid about it...and come on, let's be honest, cop cars here are unique looking so it's dumb on their part that they don't look like any other car you see out there, and so it is easy to point them out if you are doing something foolish. Otherwise they suck being undercover. If I don't see em', i let my freedom reign.

Wonder if those old people at Champaign still remember the morning that i puked in their flowers. I'll be in the area again i'm sure....

Oh and the number one asshole thing I have done is I met some women out there and never called them again, without telling them why. Guys do it all the time....and I will post a blog about those women.


More to come...I think? I'm empathetic, but i just feel like showing a little of the bad side of me.

J2K