I don't practice Santeria....

For some reason, I am very happy today...

I have been shooting my mouth off lately, just doing things, and saying things that I am not used to. Dunno what it is...think i'm just done with being my uptight self. Sheeat like that will last long. So anyway, lot has been going on. Doing the frat thing this semester, getting in with that. Also classes have been treating me well, and dunno...still sexually deprived, and was told to lower my standards.

Yeah, just so you know I have been picky with women. I think the physical attraction has to be there for me, and Christ, nothing will be accomplished with that at the rate I am going. I don't want a relationship...just once in a blue-moon fix, y'know. So not me, but that is something that I want to try out to say the least. But once you go black, you never go back.....

I was once with a black chick, and wow, good sex (Virgin eyes to the sXe person that I know). Too bad she was a bitch, but since then it has been blacker the berry, sweeter the juice for the most part. So you all want the truth? there you have it. my eyes have been glued on african-african american girls ever since the strip club, but I must say I have been getting yellow fever lately working at wally's if you know what I mean! My parents have been against me being in that interracial relationship with Laura, and if I wish I had the balls to tell them to go fuck themsleves about that. Y'know, people are people, human beings are human beings and it is all based on their behavior and antics, y'know? Not by the color of their skin and that has always been a problem within my family. I believe they have been taught to hate and discriminate black people, and it just breaks my heart. I would hate going home as well, and introduce my parents a friend of mine who is black...i have plenty of them on campus. I introduced one of them to my mom up here, and she wasn't that much friendly to him. Goddamned, that hurts like no other!! If I ever get into a interracial relationship again or hear about my parents ever telling me to not be friends with african americans or africans, I will deny them as my parents. If they have a problem with it, there's no reason for me to allow them into my life cuz it's sick, and it's very wrong. Racism is a touchy topic with me for the most part, and it breaks my heart when I look at my mom and dad...knowing they turned out to be that way. You can bet your bottom dollar that I will deny them.

Some rednecks at linden parking lot from wisconsin drove up to my Indian friend last night, and threatened him cuz they thought he was black. Dumbasses for one thing cannot differentiate races from another, so their small minds aren't worth a pot to piss in! I was so ever pissed about their actions and they had a loaded fucking gun in their vehicle...yes, i'm being honest. as my friend chased them out of the parking lot, I Got the liscense plate number written down, and reported it to the police. Police declared it a "terroristic-threat related hate crime" Oh my...hope those motherfuckers get hanged from their balls!! I'll do the deed to light them on fire as they hang!!

On a good note, i'm getting to know a girl now, but I'm a little iffy about it. I don't want to lead her on plus I don't want to get hurt. I wish there was no such thing as the 'seal the deal' to fuck or hook up with someone. Too complicated for me, since I'm a sucker for WOMEN in general....

Peace out, run redneck, rascist motherfuckers over next time you see them,

J2K