3 AM and I Want To Go To Bed....

DRUNK

We have all been there...

Out with my boys.

happens....

missed a birthday party, but i hope i'll be forgiven ;)

Big Motherfucking Travesty!!

Those who bad mouth with the decision i just made with joining a greek organization can just as well keep their heads buried in the sand, and be the worthless, opinionated sons of bitches they are. I made a choice, dammit, and i let people hold me back from doing this for the past two years.

I am not thinking less of anybody, i will not let this all overshadow my life (friends, but i don't give two peices of shit for most my family...never felt like i was included in one besides my intermediate one...).

Okay, you want me to explain about my extended family...let's start off with my mom's side.

Lot of them are snobs who ignore my grandma. My mom's sister's family. I'll get on that later...up here, it's horrible. I move to college, and what do my uncles do? Let's have JON take all responsibility to take care of her cuz we are too busy with fishing,d rinking, fucking a pig for a wife....yeah, let's just have jon do it cuz he has no life...yeah, fuck you too!!

I have an uncle who owns a cabin in canada that we have all been there...once...in our lives. Other than that, he only lets his buddies up there and that's it. fuck that noise...if i get invited again, i'll say no. wonder how he'll feel about that.

steve my cousin knows what's going on like i do, and he can agree with me that our family is torn apart up here in bemidji. he grew up a hard life with his dad sweeping shit under the rug, like all those peole do in my mom's family, and it's really tearing him up. steve, i salute you. he has had some bad luck with women like i did. just got kicekd out of his house after getting married and so forth this year...those cass lake bitches aren't worth a pot to piss in i'll tell you that much!!

the other uncle...the one who's in his mid-sixties...hates his life and takes it out on us. no patience with my helpless grandma, just passes it all on me to take responsibility over her. It's fucked up. Too bad he married that bitch treated my cousin steve like shit growing up...

My mom's sister...had two kids...both are snobs. One lives in LA, parties with hollywood...other one teaches at harvard and just looks down on every one us. Know how they made it? being lazy asses as my mom's sister kept taking MONEY from my grandma after receiving ga'zillions of money from my grandpa's will to pay their way thru life. Such a travesty, and just chaps my ass. They still need to pay my grandma back after 20 years....

Cowboy, i need you to give them a size-ten cowboy kick to their throats...freeloading bastards!!

My Dad's family from spam-town...are a bit thoughtful, but there's so much of them. don't spend a whole lot of time with them and wish i would. they are cool. but not as close cuz we are stuck with the drama-bullshit with my mom's family.

Mom and Dad they are cool. Mom's a worry-wreck that annoys the hell out of me, and my dad is a hard-ass, short-tempered irishman. No wonder i turned out the way I did...

And Cut...

I just wish i wasn't cursed!

Snuff

....to start later the better.

had the urge to chew the best smokeless tobacco since last year. Copenhagen long cut. now i took up smoking, why the hell not?

Eau Claire....

charlie talked to me this morning, and if i wouldn't have gotten sick that one time in his city, i would have gotten to know this girl Shelly more but didn't work. (far as a one night stand anyway that would have just been great for my pathetic-drunk ass at the time.)

son of a bitch.

I'm sexually deprived it is not even funny.

J2K an African?

I just got back from another binging and purging at a party.....popped in G'NR use your illusion I (Coma)


Shit. I threw up last night over keg beer. I made an ass out of myself...worked today, dreaded it like always, glad to see the Mihal bros weren't there (they are pricks) but it sucked having an asian-lunitic leena bitch at me for everything i do. fuck that c**t! I looked forward all day for my buddy Jesan's b/d party. Had a blast...?!

It was at Cooper's...he is the shit. Cooper and the rest of the african/black people tell me i'm 'one of them'...cool cool, i take pride in it, but i don't want to flaunt it like an idiot (take for instance...Wisconsin when a black guy just about beat my ass for calling him 'brother!")...Jesan was drunk, had a good time, but some stuff he was doing and saying was weirding me out a little. (tell you the details if you really want to know.) He's the shit, like the guy, told me to move at Pine (old folks home) and enjoy eveyrthing there.

Cooper...told me he accepts me as 'one of his own' but like i said, i don't flaunt it...i enjoy his company, and take for instance i feel african when i han gout with he and his friends. When I am not around those people, i don't flaunt it...i just keep my cool, and I try to be myself whenever I am around people regardless. They like who I am, being friendly, getting to know cultures, etc, so be it....If I get a free ride to Africa that'd be a dream come true. I love africa and the people I met.

...I will be african by the time i graduate by eating all the food this summer, and getting to know the guys....(Kenyans, Nigeria, Sudans, Ivory coast, Togo, Guana, Gambia, Zambia, etc...) quite a bit. I went to their festivities to eat food, and danced to the music. AFRICA IS MY DESTINY!!

I dated a black girl...some of them say "you the shit man!!"

Others knew she was white trash by heart and worth a pot to piss in...

Blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice....however, i had my ways with a Japanese girl tonight who happens to have a jamaican boyfriend (black).


But My Sights are on being an Eurospringer rather than Africa.....


Will that change for J2K? I think....

(Decisions, Decisions.....)

shhhhhhh......

I will say no more about "greek stuff"

between myself and yeah....

however, had a blast kicking it at the dorms. first time i had a tiny shin dig in my room. thank you to the people who stopped by. we were drinking (not me) and so forth. cannot beat that. tonight will be another good time.

and cut....

J2K

(Jigga J is my illonois nickname.)

I Pledge Alleigence To the Frat...

Tonight it all starts. Keep you all posted on how it went.

Nervous and excited at the same time. Only thing I fear are the sorority chicks. Any guy on campus can tell you the same...who know by experience including myself.

ewwwwww....

be nothing more than my pledge/older sisters and that's it.

Peace Out

Jigga' J

No Rest for the Wicked Brings No More Tears...

Ozzy rules everything on earth.

Too bad the SOB is retiring. His shit back in the day I truly fell in love with.

Now it's crap.

So, just reminiscing the old days with some of his classic CDs. I reccomend you purchase "No More Tears" and "No Rest for the Wicked"...J2K's favorites

I also like Ultimate Sin and Diary of a Madman.

Those were rockin'!

What happened? the Nineties.

I hated Ozzmosis and Down to Earth. Didn't stand out to be good records.

He also got a show on MTV with his family.

I lost all "appreciation" i'll say for Ozzy.

I like his old work a lot. That's the Ozzy I like.

Blizzard of Oz...classic. Crazy Train gets overplayed, but it's a kickass anthem.

So I'll carry on, and let the madness begin...(whatever that means)

Band Flyer.....

Guitar/Bassist looking for the following:

guitarist
Vocalist
Drummer
Lyricist

Can write lyrics and a splash of music

and i'm desperate.....

Times They are A Changing...

Hell am I doing here BORED!!? I did homework tonight and no one is around. Hell is going on? More times during the summer I hung out with people and now it's just backfiring or something.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............it's probaly nothing. Maybe I should go and try to learn two-steppin' it or learn something new to keep active.

Hey Everyone....Come Over Here To see How Good I Look....

Lola! La La La Lola!!!

Some reason, i Have that song in my head.

I'm burnt out. I don't think I am off to that good of a start this semester, but I know I can make better of it. I took two exams. Bombed anthropology, and who knows how I did with the Map analysis exam. Being Half-ass doesn't achieve, folks.

Came home from work and could use a cold beer. I think my buddies took off the bar tonight and a little bummed. My cell phone isn't here, and if I can have that back my night will be complete. Complete somewhat. I am also pushing myself to read a book tonight. (I hate books) and I don't feel like reading. Christ, it sucks.

next paycheck is going towards a case of beer for sure so that way I can have one a night, and be an all-American..American after a hard-days...day I guess.

Time to get my shit together that's for sure.

Hey, good news I'm over Laura. I finally appreicate my life without her. That's why I seem more calm, and satisfied with life lately...other than my academics. I was in bed the other night and found myself "not thinking of her" for like a week and was like "wow...that's cool."

Getting involved with extra-cirricular like intramural sports and OTE probaly helped me. I'm around people more to as well, and I'm barely in my room so I'm just a wandering fool.

Okay, those who go to BSU probaly know this girl, and not that I dislike her...I find her annoying. Very annoying. (Putting you all to the test, and you are just going to have to guess her name is. Hint: She lives somewhere in Oak.) Everywhere I go, she is EVERYWHERE I GO almost trying to make a point everytime that she has to be noticed, and tries too hard which aggravates the hell out of me. one night at linden first floor, she comes out of a room. Suprised me she didn't barge into the room next to that. So anyway, I was huddled in a group talking how i threw the box at a boss and she was waving at us. no one waved back. she kept waving at us as she was leaving..i did a small one..I gave in. I now bow my head in shame. But other than that, no one else waved back cuz i'm sure they all felt the same way i did "We get the point...you want everybody to like you." Shut the crap up, and simmer the hell down, will ya?

She's nice to me, don't get me wrong. She's just an airhead about it though. I just wish she'd stop doing that cuz it just makes me lose more hair on my head.


There's this other friend of mine who's always whining and crying about the smallest things, which gets old. Very much so. I know she pulls that shit to get attention. People got sick of it hardcore! now I see she isn't getting as much attention as she used to, so she pulled this 'keeping to herself thing' for a week. Two words: How pathetic.

Craving for attention is the number one candidate for the week of "What pisses J2K off" for the moment

I always like that ditty "People Are Strange" There are so many of them. Don't we all fit in that category? (not to state the obvious)

Eurospringers, let me know if you see Morrison's gravesite.

Peace Out

J2K

Holy Smokes....

How Many Posts have I done? Have I grown overly obsessed with this blogging? Sad, Sad, Sad!!!

Soma' Bitchin', Fuss and Pissin'

I Used To Love Her

Guns N Roses

I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I had to put her
Six feet under
And I can still hear her complain


I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I knew I miss her
So I had to keep her
She's buried right in my back yard


I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I used to love her, but I had to kill her
She bitched so much
She drove me nuts
And now I'm happier this way


I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I used to love her, but I had to kill her
I had to put her
Six feet under
And I can still hear her complain

Football Five Years Later...

I have to say I still got it...barley.

I was recruited to join an intramural football team last week and never thought they'd call me. Well, today was the day they needed me so I came, I played, and I helped conquer.

These guys we played were jocks no doubt. Guys on my team were all jocks 'cept for me. My friend Holly's older brother is even on it, and he's the biggest jock I know. So I was out there, out of shape, snapping the ball, rushing the QB, going out for passes, just kicking my own ass and loved every minute of it I must say. Been way too long since I played a good game of smashmouth football...well, this was flag football.

We won the game...suprised cuz they kicked our ass during the first half. 45 minutes it lasted and I am now shot! I worked afterwards for a couple hours and ain't no way I'm going anywhere tonight! Study? Not no more. The bed looks like a good place to rest for me.

Take Em' To Church...what a name for a football team. Check us out sometime. I'm the fat, out of shape one out there who limps! ;)

Places J2K Loves to Death Part II

Oregon coast: Spectacular day, me and my pops spent the day there and had some fine ribs, and caught some waves.

Idaho: Craters of the moon that is all I got to say.

Montana: Gorgeous...gorgeous country. If you havent' been there, you suck. Just kidding...but it is like being in a different world. No bigger towns and such, and it's scenic. gets people off their asses to enjoy nature. Some history there with Custer's battle. Good shit.

Lake of the Woods: Uncle owns a cabin up there, did some fishing. Cold, very cold weather mid-July at 30 degrees but was worth it. We were on an island for a week enjoying it all. He's kind of an ass about bringing family up there and is more for his fishing buddies getting wasted and whatnot but that's cool. Hopefull I will inherit that place in the future.

I have been to LA but was not impressed much. Dirty, dirty city. snobby people too. For instance, a relative of mine. (Erik knows who she is.)

That all belongs to the list of things.

Peace Out

This Gimp is playing some Intramural football today, so I'll make the best of it.

J2K

Don't Fuck With the Bad side of me....

I did a post earlier bitching about going to pizza hut...NOW I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO QUIT AFTER TONIGHT!

First of all, I work with a bunch of uptight, nit-picky people who never like the way I do things such as...

"too much sauce"

Can't hurt anything.

"You put 13 pepporoni on this pizza...it needs 12!!"

That's what you call good business...customers got themselves a deal!

"People aren't going to like seeing their pizza in a box far apart from each-other like that..."

For Christ sakes, it'll taste the same, wouldn't it?



I had shitty weekend, sprained my ankle, Vikings lost, and worked this weekend. I wasn't going to take any shit tonight that's for sure. I dread this job, and even shouted in the kitchen that I hate my job, and so further into the night, I stood up for my rights.

This manager of mine..student worker from Nepal (some I like, some are just idiots) was getting on my last nerve. I will do honest mistakes here and there...I'm new, shit happens. Obviously she hasn't heard the term. So she showed me to do the breadstick sauce two weeks ago, and told me to mix some up again. She asked me if i remembered and I said "vaguely" and she got pissed.

"I do the hard work and leave you workers to do simple work...you should know this stuff blah blah blah it's not that hard"

So she told me to find the sauce...i walk around, cuz i didn't know where the fuck it was, and she's yelling at me in front of the customers "What are you doing? I showed you where to find it last week."

No she didn't....

So I just lost it, snapped, whatever and tweeked out myself and swiped an empty box towards her from this closet inside the pizza hut dining area and it hit her. She walked away looking like she was ready to cry. Did I feel bad? I am glad I did it. Made me feel better about myself. When I worked at newby's, managers were like that to me at times and I can recall saying shit back but I never thought I would do anything physical to retaliate...until now....oof ta, like my Norwegian family would say! Anyway, People saw it so that was cool.

Had an argument for awhile in the kitchen and told me again how she's a hardworker and so forth and i told her to have patience with me cuz i still need time to know where shit is at, how to do stuff, etc, and i work at pizza hut once a week. She would not listen, cuz she's high on herself. (I think she'll end up like this Leena manager from Malaysia I know, and spend the rest of her life in food service 10 years later being here at BSU) Haha! anyway, She also told me to quit and told her I was down with that and didn't speak for the rest of the night. I don't even think she would accept an apology....i knew she wouldn't and that is why those words never came out of my mouth. I din't appreciate the way she was treating me, and i told her that and she wouldn't hear it. Fuck that bitch!

Will my reputation take a blow there? We'll find out. I was in a shit mood going in, and turned to a shitty-mood walking out.

I should have walked out. Some say it's weak, but it would have been ballsy at the same time.

Jayda, go fuck yourself!

Cool Ranch Dressing.....

'Pizza Smut' is really tearing me up inside....

Looking at the clock...time is ticking....countdown to work at this hellacious environment in forty minutes. Less than an hour...less than 45 minutes...ahhhh I'm going crazy.

Killed Time Today...still don't have the fucking web working on my cell phone and it's really a drag, man. I want my G'NR and Wu Tang ringtones, dammit! And the Vikings lost today horribly to put icing on the cake. Goddamned losers! Culpepper is fucking worthless. Never thought he was all that great anyway. He will probaly hold the highest record with most interceptions. And that motherfucker just got a raise recently...Anyway, If I didn't get drunk all those times this weekend, I could go for a cold beer now. Other than that, sat around and chilled out. Talked to some girl i met thru mattie and ended up talking about sex openly (so not me, but it's just a simple topic. Sex happens, sex is good.) I used to be shy about the topic, but hey. It was online so I have no idea what this girl looks like, and plus I think she's off limits since my buddy is working on her...and ask me for details about the specifics.

I'm fat, i'm a drunkyard, and this guy needs some work. Need to get my priorities straight before I make a good catch. One thing I noticed about me when I'm looking for girls I'm extremly picky, and it's a shame. I go for looks and so forth...yeah, i live in a superficial environment.

Fuck! I am going to never EVER working at pizza hut again after today. I dread it like no other. I'd rather do janitorial work than working this shit. I hate it, I hate it, and I FUCKING HATE IT!!!

(What do you think I'm trying to say anyway.....)

Places J2K loves to death...

Moondance - J2K had a non-stop blast, and will make his way there next year for sure.

Champaign-Urbana, IL- You want excitement in a little big city, this place is where I kind of would make a living. Area looks like Red-River Valley in Minnesota, but it's beautiful. People there seem more laid back than here, and it's a total trip.

Winnepeg - Those who knock Canada obviously have not been to winnepeg. Incredible place, good food, good scenery.


Bemidji- birthplace of me, that's all i have to say.

Yep that's about it.

Live Shit: Binge and Purge

While I am watching the Vikings get beat, I decided to start up another blog....

Friday Night: Started to drink at 4 pm, sprained my ankle at the keg and cork after taking shots of three wiseman and wild turkey. it was fun, let me tell you. walked 10 blocks to get to my friend's place afterwards (don't know why) and continued my binge at the house (Alex's). Got a call from some other buddies, took off, bought drinks, and partied south of town on carr lake road. Mostly freshman were there so it was kind of lame. Took off....and......can't remember shit. OH my friend shan threw up all over the kitchen on my floor and i drove drunk to the lutheran campus bonfire. Was told to check it out....grrrrr...i really felt like a horse's ass there!

Saturday: All over the place as well. Worked all day with a sprained ankle, pissed me off that i had to go thru a hassle to find ppl to cover my shifts but i said fuck it. I worked anyway to get some extra cash. After that, Went to 35 ave, took shots, went to the same party south of town and there were more ppl, saw upper classman. Saw my friends who are in the frat there, and played a game of pool with some hot lesbian chicks. kept taking shots of my windsor. Ended up going to a gas station to visit a friend...Paradise City was on the radio and i turned it up and sang my heart out. i was asked to leave so i had to piss and i pissed next the gas pumps at cenex....

U bar was a good time. Saw my friends....some of them had fake IDs to get in since they were underage. Remember the girl i told you that i asked out? She and i were getting jiggy with it off and on at the dance floor. Saw some ppl i know too and asked if i was with laura...my friend juliet stepped in and said "he's with me now"...funny, stupid drunkyards we can all be.

Ended up going to a birthday bash afterwards at some dude's house from nepal. listned to some more music, and had a blast. kept getting drunk. Called my friend Dev and he was yelling at me cuz i spreaded rumors that Ben Dosso makes Fake IDs and it was said by Dev. Dev told me to fuck off and hung up on me and on top of that, cops came in and busted the party cuz some dummy called 911 for fun. Then i saw a fight between girls, and drama was in the air. We took off and went to Juliet's house....

Ended up getting jiggy with it on the floor again, and started to get tired and so i walked 7 blocks home with my sprained ankle. I think i passed out over there for 15 minutes, and woke up next to a girl. My luck nothing happened. Went home after 'waking up' Got to bed and feel like shit now....

saw dev today and it is all good....ben told me there were some problems between he and another good friend of mine last night, and i have no clue what that is about. But she-at drama seems to follow me whereever I go...

Peace Out

J2K

I don't practice Santeria....

For some reason, I am very happy today...

I have been shooting my mouth off lately, just doing things, and saying things that I am not used to. Dunno what it is...think i'm just done with being my uptight self. Sheeat like that will last long. So anyway, lot has been going on. Doing the frat thing this semester, getting in with that. Also classes have been treating me well, and dunno...still sexually deprived, and was told to lower my standards.

Yeah, just so you know I have been picky with women. I think the physical attraction has to be there for me, and Christ, nothing will be accomplished with that at the rate I am going. I don't want a relationship...just once in a blue-moon fix, y'know. So not me, but that is something that I want to try out to say the least. But once you go black, you never go back.....

I was once with a black chick, and wow, good sex (Virgin eyes to the sXe person that I know). Too bad she was a bitch, but since then it has been blacker the berry, sweeter the juice for the most part. So you all want the truth? there you have it. my eyes have been glued on african-african american girls ever since the strip club, but I must say I have been getting yellow fever lately working at wally's if you know what I mean! My parents have been against me being in that interracial relationship with Laura, and if I wish I had the balls to tell them to go fuck themsleves about that. Y'know, people are people, human beings are human beings and it is all based on their behavior and antics, y'know? Not by the color of their skin and that has always been a problem within my family. I believe they have been taught to hate and discriminate black people, and it just breaks my heart. I would hate going home as well, and introduce my parents a friend of mine who is black...i have plenty of them on campus. I introduced one of them to my mom up here, and she wasn't that much friendly to him. Goddamned, that hurts like no other!! If I ever get into a interracial relationship again or hear about my parents ever telling me to not be friends with african americans or africans, I will deny them as my parents. If they have a problem with it, there's no reason for me to allow them into my life cuz it's sick, and it's very wrong. Racism is a touchy topic with me for the most part, and it breaks my heart when I look at my mom and dad...knowing they turned out to be that way. You can bet your bottom dollar that I will deny them.

Some rednecks at linden parking lot from wisconsin drove up to my Indian friend last night, and threatened him cuz they thought he was black. Dumbasses for one thing cannot differentiate races from another, so their small minds aren't worth a pot to piss in! I was so ever pissed about their actions and they had a loaded fucking gun in their vehicle...yes, i'm being honest. as my friend chased them out of the parking lot, I Got the liscense plate number written down, and reported it to the police. Police declared it a "terroristic-threat related hate crime" Oh my...hope those motherfuckers get hanged from their balls!! I'll do the deed to light them on fire as they hang!!

On a good note, i'm getting to know a girl now, but I'm a little iffy about it. I don't want to lead her on plus I don't want to get hurt. I wish there was no such thing as the 'seal the deal' to fuck or hook up with someone. Too complicated for me, since I'm a sucker for WOMEN in general....

Peace out, run redneck, rascist motherfuckers over next time you see them,

J2K

No Regret

I think I made...in fact, I am pretty sure I made an excellent decision by going to an open Rush last night for a fraternity on campus.

For one thing, I tried out two years ago with these guys...got my feet wet, and seemed like they were cool. after awhile, I felt like it was not for me. It was my first year coming in, didn't know anyone, and knowing that these were the only guys that I will probaly be hanging out with, and that was it and won't know anyone else. That would suck to have no social life outside of the fraternity. I wouldn't know anyone else on campus...just these guys. I wanted to explore first and I did.

A lot has happened over the past couple of years. I quote unquote "fell in love", I met people on campus and made some friends for life, and so on. Well, I have all of these people to hang out with, I am no longer in a relationship, these guys in the frat are cool as hell and got to know them throughout the years...i am going to give it a shot!

Now I know I will be sterotyped as a beer-drinkin'-frat boy...I drink plenty of beer already. Other than that, if anyone looks down on me for making this decision, they can just as well go fuck themselves. It's just an organization that I feel will benefit me with scholarships, brotherhood, and such and I'm convinced if I am not going to be part of this organization, I will regret it. That is how I truly feel.

Couple of the guys have a music thing going, and need someone to jam with. Really excited about this whole thing.

J2K

3 Minutes To Make a Long Blog....

I am between classes and bored and here I am, typing another blog and i have three minutes.......

First of all, today is a good day. Last night was a hell of a deal but I am just thnakful that I am not sitting in jail, however Erik would be entertained by that. (That's just because he has been in a squad car before...I have a better record haha). So Yeah, I was watching some comedian show last night, and he looked a lot like Pee-Wee Herman. I'm sure he gets that a lot.

Well, so this is an Erik bashing post cuz he gave me some greif today, so it all came back to him.

3 minutes goes by fast....

Out

J2K

You can Learn lessons from close calls...

Was at a Place where I shouldn't been.....

I was going to get some sleep after watching a movie at andy's but these peopel called and just had to have me come over. Thought i'd be there for five minutes...turned out to be roughly an hour.

I showed up, grabbed a beer and played a game of cards. I did buy these girls beer earlier cuz they were friends of mine for one thing. So we played cards, and there was a knock at the door. Bemidji Police. I blacked out, I swear I did. I frozed up hardcore. I thought my life was over. I go to jail so i can kiss college goodbye mom and dad will kill my ass for being stupid to purchase some of the booze and getting fucked over. And to top it all, my future will go down the drain. The cops asked for our IDs and I was the only one there of age. Hey everyone, just to tell you all, being this kind of a predicament is the best thing that will ever happen to you!

So everything I guess turned out good. this 18 year old freshman chick was crying and I was kind of laughing inside "Hey princess...you FUCKED UP!!" If this douche-bag twit wouldn't have thrown the bottle AT THE FUCKING POLICE STATION BEHIND THE PLACE...everything would been all good in the hood.

Cops questioned our age, took our IDs, some dumbass kept talking to the cops about how innocent he is and trying to sell us all out...cops told him to shut the fuck up or the renters would be going to jail.

Well, the girls at the party just stopped into my room and talked about everything, and thank god they get to keep their apartment, didn't get arrested, and so on. They say they will never throw parties over there again........but we'll see! I guess the cops will keep the booze for 30 days, and hold them accountable so they don't do anything stupid like throw another party. If nothing happens in 30 days (no minors, etc), the booze will be dumped out and we can forget about the whole entire night.

I'm glad everything is alright...fuck, I learned my lesson. That's for goddamned sure.

Getting booze for minors is a big NO NO in the first place, and I advise everybody to be careful.

Peace Out

J2k

Me vs. books (novels, biography, and others that you 'book smart-ass people may know")

I clash with books, and it's a shame. I have a lot to read this fucking semester, and it's going to get down to the real nitty gritty i can tell. so my ex girlfriend fucked another guy, that was hard...this will be ten times more stressful to deal with.

Ishmael book i am reading seems interesting that a guy, who is desperate to look for a 'teacher' to teach him ways of society, what better way for him to find a teacher that is a gorilla...i dig it. for now.

Paul O'Neil, Bush's former Secretary of the Treasury, wrote a book called "Price of Loyalty." and I guess it's about him having G. Dub's back throughout the war and such. Haven't cracked it open yet.

Sociology...fuck that noise...dont' know what all i have to read there.

Never been a huge reader. Never been the type to sit outside and read. Never read with classical music. Never been to a coffee shop to read. Never read anything that struck a nerve or touched my life. Never done any of that shit. Only reading I enjoy are sports illustrated or hit parader. Metal Edge was my preference back in the day for sure! Now, pffft...time to do the professional work.

Sparknotes, movies (bullshit, lowest way of doing book reports) and friends saved my ass throughout high school/college. This will suck.

End of the semester, the books will probaly say "Jon, you got served!!"

I'm The Only Witness To the Nature of My Crime...

I feel as if no one truly knows me. Some see the good side such as those international students, and see the friendly me, and act polite and such. No way, I hate that but Sure I'll do the polite thing anyway. But behind their back, sometimes I have nothing nice to say about some of them, who remain nameless.


Sometimes I wish I would be like "dumbass doesn't know much about the world even though he lived here since '98', makes ppl feel sorry for him, mooching off from other people. Well my friend, if I had it my way either get a job or take your refugee ass back where you came from and quit being a goddmaned, irresponsible parasite!!!"

What else comes to mind... whenever I travel the highway, i get the urge to knock the motorcyclists off the road. Haha!! Ain't It Fun?



I once hacked into someone's website and his biker-family was out to get me....ohhhhh never do that!

I tend to get into fights when i am drunk (well came close to all of them but someday i'm sure with my big mouth i'll get the living daylights beaten out of me.) Yep, a black guy just about killed my ass for calling him brother....I also pit people against eachother, cuz i live for that sort of thing...it's entertaining i must say. Just go back and forth, be like "he said this" or "she said this" and get people going....hahaha...so elementary, but that's just me.

Fuck, i'm sure my ex can tell you some stuff about me that i proudly admit saying some of the stuff that I said to her, and I regret saying a lot of shit, but heh! It is what helps me to defeat her in my mind, and i think i scarred the bitch for life but what can i say? we all have to have a defense mechanism.

When I work, without a doubt i bring some food home....

I piss on sidewalks drunk downtown bemidji, and tell people to back away if they are too paronoid about it...and come on, let's be honest, cop cars here are unique looking so it's dumb on their part that they don't look like any other car you see out there, and so it is easy to point them out if you are doing something foolish. Otherwise they suck being undercover. If I don't see em', i let my freedom reign.

Wonder if those old people at Champaign still remember the morning that i puked in their flowers. I'll be in the area again i'm sure....

Oh and the number one asshole thing I have done is I met some women out there and never called them again, without telling them why. Guys do it all the time....and I will post a blog about those women.


More to come...I think? I'm empathetic, but i just feel like showing a little of the bad side of me.

J2K

How I want It...

How I want to see myself...

Patient, cleanliness, hard-working with the books, confident, and pleased with myself.

Guess there are materialistic goals too, but they are not as important for right now.

J2K...signing off and you all have a good night!

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Friday night.

I went to introduce my friends from linden to my friend, and best bud Rachel last night, and what a good time it was. Went there downtown right by First National bank and partied hard, and couldn't remember a goddamned thing other than getting totally tanked, taking shots with this Amber chick, and her roomate Shelter (shelly). Scott's drunk ass called, and she and him ended up talking, and thought the guy needs to take a break from Decatur (land of dead-beats) and see the north shore. Anyway, hell with Scott! We were also playing a game called 'fuck the dealer.' I was actually lucky...didn't drink once in that game, cuz i got it right everytime, cuz the dealer was fucked himself, shan, and lol, man he hates me now. It was a good time. Left one of my friends there on accident but he forgave me. See what else...Oh Yeah, interesting. Amber and I 'took it outside' and she swung a fucking chair at me so I picked her up and spun her around a little bit. She liked it. That is why she hugged me and perhaps kissed me...??? Enough partying for me for awhile.

Saturday.

Lame and Plain. Went to work to do the redundant grilling shit from 10-7 tonight, thinking I had better things to do like playing my guitar all day and get homework done but nooooooo......had to make chicken patties for those fat-fuck football players and serve their asses cuz they are cool and all and had a game today.

During break, my co-workers wanted me to do impersonations of friends of mine and such. I did a classic one of Jesan's. Oh, I hope he doens't hear about it. Also can do a Ben impression, and a Dev impression (in an Indian accent: "I got bit by a dog.")...oh, priceless, never thought I had such talent. I had Ben fall off his chair laughing, and cried his eyes out.

After work I was supposed to meet Dev for a liquor run and go to a party with his posse but that never happened, and I guess he thought i was pissed that he asked me to get him booze. I wasn't pissed...just a little cautious but he's a good friend of mine. Feel bad, but I do what i have to do.

I went to Birch to visit a few people, holly, chad, sam, and steph. Later on, i ended up chillin' with Steph and Andy, walking around the dorm, looking for ciggarettes for them to smoke. come to find out later on that night, my friend 'Z' told me the girl that I "asked out" the other night gets all speechless when she hears my name, and went to the bar tonight. I got talked into going to the bar from Steph and Andy to meet up with her, but really had no ambition to do so....if i had a few drinks in me, maybe I would be more excited to. Thing is when I asked her out, I think i was looking to get some, but she's such a sweet, nice girl, and it would be so taboo to take advantage of that with her at the time. But hell, I developed some ideas from listening to them if i go out, i'll have that chance to get laid since April/March...whatever it was. Shit, it's been a long time. Well, at least I'm not in Jesse's shoes...been a year now for him? oh....i didn't say that, did i?

so i guess it would have been nice to know what bar she went to...first thing that came to mind was the U-Bar cuz she and her friends are all about hitting the club. I went there, shit, forogt my ID..and the bouncers didn't recognize me. I went all the way home, found my ID. Went back, got in...big hell no. Big hell no all over downtown.

Fuck it, went home and here I am. I'm half/half depressed about the whole thing. Oh well, my time will come. Cannot do these things out of force.

this girl i'm not totally physically attracted to in the first place, and I don't wnat her to get too attactched to me. I don't know what she thought I meant by this whole damn ordeal, and being in this predicament sucks too much ass, and is giving me a headache like a mother.

Wouldn't it be nice if life itself was easier than it is?

Special Thanks to those who made this blog possible...

Curt: you got me started on this, thank you, brother. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have let out all the poison I endured in my system...

Scott: No matter if you'd fuck my wife in the future, you'd still be my best friend. That is how much I care about you, bro!

Andy: Do you read this? Probaly think i'm a maniac for saying what I say...

Charlie: webmaster at his best, sure he stumbled upon this. Eh, told me my thing was cool and all, but might push people away. Ahhh...I am human, I say stuff whatever it is possible for a human to say, and it's all nature my friend. I'll say whatever it is on my mind, and won't feel offended by it....

Cassie: Ohhhhh...think she was only there to gain moral support when she was in dire straits with andy...now days she doesn't talk to me. Well the 'heck' with you too..to be nice about it....

Steph: I read your journal, and you told me you read my blog and encouraged me to not quit doing this thing, when the going gets tough. I appreciate it. We have both been thru some good and bad in relationships, and we can relate to eachother. I hope she and I can continue to support eahcohter in that aspect, and hang out more often than we do...

Erik: One word: Asshole!! (he hates it when I say that) well anyway, he is an asshole, and i know he can be an RA and be hardcore about it. That son of a bitch learned from the best..that's right, ME!!

Sam and Chad: Sorry for the profanity, but I respect you both whole-heartedly, and you are good samaritans, and have taught me well since I have been here, but i'm still a scoundral, sorry to say....

Mattie= buy magnums at wal-mart, and having the female cahsiers look shocked when they see him purchase trojan magnum-condoms...oh classic. I love this guy to death...one of my best friends here...

Katie: not sure she reads this, but she made Oak 3B happen....

Alex and Ryan: thanks for shwoing me the ropes on campus....

Who else am i missing....sure i'll remember them tomorrow

Peace Out

J2K

loaded like a freight-train!!...

Spot up for rent

Hello, My Name is Idiot!!

Last night, got drunk, had my 1/2 pint of whiskey......

Went to Oak and watch one of my fav movies "Boondock Saints" and kept sipping away...

Tired...went home, decided to visit a "friend of mine" who I hung out with this weekend and so forth since I haven't seen her since last semester. She is very sweet, and very kind. I wish more girls would be like her...

So anyway, Ended up telling her that I like her and we should hang out, and perhaps see where it goes from there to see if we will develop something, cuz I have a tiny crush on her, and she seemed flattered. Think I asked her out and everything. Dammit, I'm a fool.......I barley know her!!

Oh Christ, what have I done? Jon, you idiot!! I cannot wait to see tomorrow :S!!!

Come On Feel the ILLONOISE!!

Scott called today, introduced me to listen to some Sufjan Stevens. You should check out his stuff. He plays some Weird, folk-music. I dig folk music. I have for awhile now. Anyway, His notion is to write songs about places he has been to, such as the Great Lakes or Illonois. Listening to him reminds me of being in that dreary, dark place called Decatur, Illonois. I hate that town with a passion, and my best firend needs to get the hell out of there, cuz that college town is only taking him down!!

So I downloaded some tracks from his "Come on feel the Illonoise" album, sang about Scott's college town "Decatur" and wrote about the scumbag himself "John Wayne Gacy Jr." from Chicago, and what a bizzare tune that was. It reminded me of looking at Marilyn Manson for the first time...Holy Christ!!

I knocked his sad bastard music before, but I guess Sufjan's music is good to chill out to after a long day. some are happy, some are "will you kill yourself already you sad-pathetic son of a bitch!!."

So I am half/half with Sad Bastard Music now...have more of an open mind I guess!!

How Do You Want It?

The Telephone knows so many people I don't like.....

Jack, Les, and I

Short Story

It was a long night, kind of a drag. Jack gave me a call, so before ten o'clock pm, I had to pick him up for the night. I got there at 9:55 pm, so I was right on time. We traveled back to my place, listened to some tunes, and then I tried to leave Jack behind as I went out to the bar, but he followed me anyway. I was very drunken within my spirits as I took off to a bar. Thanks to Jack, he made the beer go down smoother. I met a few women, talked to them, but Jack decided to sweet talk them. Next thing I know, I went outside with those women and Jack, and they met up with their men. One asked what I was doing with them. Next thing I know Jack had a few choice words with them. It wasn't Jack that got knocked down...I was the one who got knocked on my ass. I knew the next morning I will wake up in a world of pain.

Jack has always been trouble. Got my ass kicked, got me sick, ruined my chances with women, made me do harassing phone calls. I had enough of him. Enough was enough. I went home, and tossed the motherfucker out of my house.

"Jon, don't do this...we have had some good times. I got you laid. I got you free drinks, I helped you win fihgts, Hell, whenever you were depressed, I brought you good times...why you do me like this?" says Jack.

"Jack, all those things brought me to no good. I got laid, but got Syphillis. I got free drinks from people, but they were stolen, and got my ass kicked later!! I won fights, but they got their retribution. About being depressed, you enhance my depression!! You never backed me up!!"

Jack out the window...

There he flew out of my window, and broke every bone in his body. But since people knew who he was, the crook that he is, no one went outside to help him. He was in peices everywhere as a street sweeper swept up his remains. What a scoundral.

Gone. He's finally gone. No more trouble.

I turned around, and Les was standing there. He was pissed off I never hang out with him much, but I made it up for him as I introduced him to some Tom Petty and G'NR tunes. Hell, I think his favorite is Bob Dylan. I had a good time, and for now on, I think he's my new best friend, since Jack is no longer with us.

Weekends Les and I go to bars, but we celebrate the weekend with some good tunes, since we have a band going. Les and I cooperate better the more we practice with our tunes, and we'll get there. Just have patience.

Les, this note's for you!

Is It All Just Wasted Time?

Too much dinking around. Too much not calming down. Too much fun. Always on the run.

Too much worry. Too much always in a hurry. Too much sleep. No time to keep on my feet.

Is It all just wasted time? My actions aren't worth a dime....
Is It all just wasted time? Not resting my head is doing time...

BSU

I had a good day. When I say good, I mean better than I was.

This year has started off great, and I think I'll do just fine with my classes. My people and the environment class is once a week, a little confusing with 7 staff members, and meeting for a small group discussion for a little bit afterwards with one of the staff members (come to find out, my prof for that class has a blog thru blogspot so I feel very ashamed, embarassed with my explicit material that he may see it. I deeply apologize.) That class will be tough. It's like using philosophy with how to help the environment. I also think my anthropology classs cuz the prof there is pushing 70, thinking he'd be a bore but interesting. It will be hard. Did learn something....there is no such thing as 'the real me' in people. Gave an example that i laughed at.....

"If you say you are the real me, would you be the person you are as you are having sex with your spouse or being the person you are around little kids?..."

Think about it....

I busted out the bass today, brought it down to 1B linden and rocked out wiht some tom petty tunes with zack, a guitar player, along with AC/DC, Neil Young, "Wreck of Edmund fitzgerald" was even being played, written from the legendary gordon lightfoot. Had a few people checking us out, probaly get something going with this guy. He built his guitar, and looks damn good, and sounds good. Needs some fine tuning with the neck though. Goes out of tune easily.

The new students that I have met have been good for the most part. I mostly got aquainted with international students because I always tried to make a point to become their friends cuz I feel it is hard for them to be aquainted with people right away...gotta be careful about letting them know I have a car though. They'll be knocking at my door everyday for favors, some of them do, and kind of lost it on one guy...happens!

My breath was taken away from noticing a girl from INDIA on campus today. Wow, My eyes were just glued and couldn't seem to fix my eyes on anything else. How come girls from India look so good? I want to get to know her cuz she is very, very gorgeous. Drop dead gorgeous....

I also met a girl from Nepal that lives a floor below me, and sat outside wtih her for a couple hours last night, and didn't know our conversation would carry for that long. It was cold, damn was it ever. she kept smoking her ciggarettes, conversing with eachohter about our cultures and so forth. I came back from class today, and she was having a smoke, and talked some more.

Off to a good start considering that I went thru hell and back this year.


J2K