You Cannot Kill What Is Stronger Than Death

It's official...(Here's another entertaining Laura rant, by the way)

I know for a fact "The Whore" is sleeping with "Mop-head" after calling her today to tell her I needed to get my bike back. called her up, and she told me flat out to never call her again cuz she and her 'friend' found a new place! My first reaction was "Have fun playing with those old balls, miss quick-fix..I need to get my fucking bike back, done chit chatting with you, that is all I want!!" Threw me off guard, but I knew this day would come. Question is did my world once again turn upside down...yes it did. Another salt to the wound. Better off unsaid, but I made it quite clear on the way to pick up my bike in her Rav4 I Never want to see her or talk to her again. Period. K, I made a mistake calling her a couple weeks ago to get into good terms, perhaps catch up and see where it goes from there. NOPE. She fucking does me wrong again. In conclusion, she lives an insufficient life. I told her that and blah blah blah...nothing was said back to me right away, because she knew I treated her right. She knew I set her straight. She knew she didn't deserve me. Thing that has always bothered her was whenever we go to places, she'd just be in my shadow. She'd hated it that I see friends all over, and she gets ignored (cuz she's a bitch, didn't i mention that?) I didn't see it then, but I see it now. Damn straight she should be in my shadow cuz I know how to be someone's friend. I know how to keep everyting cool without making things worse like she does. All her friends now were met thru me, well she did say they can all go to hell today. I laughed.

She could not handle making it without me. I know this for a fact, and that is why I feel so damn good about all of this. All I want to do after being driven like I have been is to make her life hell whenever we communicate. She is letting shit burn now, trying to erase me by doing what she does. She probaly lieks it that I'm furious with she and her Old Man, but I know my life will turn out better in a long run, and soon I will forget that I once loved her...I hope. During that, he'll be scrubbing toilets on BSU ground as she works at her ma and pa's gas station. Am I arrogant? No...but compared to them, I damn well should be!

There's something I want to say about "Old Balls." See, we'll run into eachother here on BSU ground, and to him, I am Bill Gates, and he's just a hobo polishing the toilets that I piss in, trying to make money, serving people like me and the rest of the students who have ambition and goals. Oh, but the poor son of a bitch chosed the wrong path to pick pecker hairs for a living, ignores his children and buys booze every weekend as I become a political analysis on Fox News. You do the math...this guy sure sounds like a real winner to me. Just makes me want to puke cuz I don't know what this says about me if Laura settles for a guy like this!!

Well anyway, on the way to pick up my bike instead of saying mean stuff to her, I pry did the right thing going off on what my life was like now...visiting friends at illonois twice this summer, got 3 jobs, she doesn't like it that I have a lot of friends sicne we broke up, scored high with my GPA, being single and such and she spat back into my face, saying I am an asshole that rubs it into her face that I am much better than her with what I do. Well sorry, Laura, if you suck at life and I'm trying to do something with mine. Then she went off on how I wasn't the one who called her everyday to tell her how beautiful she is and say that I am thankful that I am with her...her current guys does! Whoopidy fucking doo...I cannot even count how many times I done for her, it's true, and she just sweeps everything about me under the rug to forget just how true I was to her. It is hard to be thankful to be with her, and things change as the relationship goes further...you don't do that lubby dubby stuff anymore and it wears off.

I just wasted time with this cheap, peice of trash. I dumped her March, and not over the bitch. Wish I can sing "You Ain't the First" by GN'R with pride. It'll take time. But I'm living, that's enough for me.

BLS- You cannot kill what is stronger than death

Good ol' Zakk is right on that one.