Apologies

I want to apologize for the message I wrote last night, in fact, It was my last night to have fun for awhile, so I decided to drink with Andy!! But after hearing that your ex-gf has an STD or something down her throat, and she keeps calling you, it hits you below the belt. I just want to make it clear that I hope I do not find another person like her in my life. So I apologize anyway, just in case I push people away or whatever.....

This is the last week for classes, and I am excited...but not excited for the next couple of days. Still need to complete my travelouge, so I doubt I'll be going out this weekend, which is cool. I need to take a break from causing chaos. I have an exam this morning for Understanding Politics, and I'm not studying for that as usual...it'll be another "B" for the exam. Marxism...been there, done that!! I feel in that class he needs to challenge people more...

This week was wild. Went to Grand Forks last night wtih Big Jon and Andy (Andy is gung ho to pick up everclear (190 proof), as so was I) so I tagged along. Got back, and found messages from Laura "I'm Sick! I'm Sick" and just shook my head, and went about my business. I didn't call her back. Went to Andy's room, and Watched "Some Kind of Monster" by Metallica. Good DVD, everytime I see those guys I feel like I am part of the band. I'll do a metallica post one of these days.

The other night after hanging out with Fuzzy, Rachel gave me a buzz, and I strolled over to her place. Her boyfriend was out of town and wanted to hang out :S (I felt a little uncomfortable, but I have known her since I came to BSU). I know she has feeligns for me and all so that is why it was a little akward. We hung out for awhile, had a snapple, and talked about the good ol' days with her being part of "Snap, Krackle, and Pop" gang here with Mattie and Lisa. We talked about how much Mattie (red-head guy you all may know here) has changed from an innocent, religious type to become a rebellious wild-man. He's still a good guy, and believes in the good Lord, but he just wants to have some fun. I remember this one night these people cut him off druinking, and he just stood up, using the bird "Fuck you, you cannot tell me what I can and cannot do!! All of my life I've gone thru that and I have had it!!" Or when women treat him bad..."Damn Ovaries!!" lol...I relate to him cuz so many girls trampled on him as well as myself. So anyway, I tagged along wtih them at times, but like I said, I am a wanderer...I don't really belong to a certain click. Anyway, we watched fear and loathing las vegas, went to Wal-Mart around 3 in the morning to get some food. I had one of those cakes in a cup from the deli...good stuff. It was nice to get off campus.

Came home, and come to find out I FORGOT that I was to attend a shin dig over at Alex's house. Oh well, I would have gotten wasted and drank myself stupid over there anyway like what I did last night. I had the most terrible gut-rot from everclear...oof-da!! don't drink it fast.

And update on moving off campus...prolly won't happen. You know how some friends like to blow smoke out of their ass, right? Oh well, living here isn't so bad either. It has its advantages.

Drinking, I feel that it has taken control of me lately, and I want to cut down. It's starting to become my freshman year again here and I don't want that. No offense to my friends who live on this floor, but I am glad to get away to a different dorm this fall where I will not be around all that. Make it a weekend thing..but that gets expensive.

I got a new job! I will be doing some cleaning, construction work over at wal-nut to make it nice for everyone there, who eat that God-forsaken food...j/k!

Life is good, classes almost done, and another change in the scene always puts a smile on my face!

I know It's Gettin' Better and the change is going to come my way- Tesla