Kiss is actually an alright band afterall....

Okay, I bashed the band earlier on my blog. I do personally hate gene simmons, and as a human being he sucks. He's the biggest Asshole in rock history, besides Axl Rose! I do, however, find myself rocking out to "Cold Gin" "Deuce" "God of Thunder" "Love It Loud" "Hotter Than Hell..." Can't help it I guess. Plus their makeup and costumes rule! Makes a good stage prescence and this halloween I'll for sure go to the club looking like Peter Criss or Paul Stanley in makeup....fuck Gene simmons!!

However, Kiss 80's era...I was exposed to instead of the 70's makeup era. They had such shitty tunes..."Heaven's On Fire" "X into Sex" "Lick It Up"...I'll find myself puking if I ever hear that stuff again, thank you very much, Erik!

Yep, so I decided to let you all know where my status truly is with these guys. It's not liek I am part of the Kiss Army or anything, but I have been enjoying their tunes.

and cut...

J2K

The Purse...

8th grade seemed like yesterday. We were young, dumb, and wanted to have fun.

I would do this again...I was 13 at the time, buddies would get together and try to do that 'purse' trick. What we do is we find a fishing pole, hook the purse on it and leave it laying on the street as people walk by, or drive by to see what it is. we would sit in the pine trees behind my buddie's house to hide. Anyway, we would sit there and people would pull up and try to pick it up, becasue they'll see monopoly money in it. So we yank on it, they drop it on the ground and say "Fuck me, it moved..." lol. Scott, being the genourous guy he is would step out and say "sorry ma'am, we are just having fun...." dummy, you blew our cover...

We went to the extreme with it one night. Scott actually took a shit in the purse and pulled the same prank. It was halloween night I think. Anyway, people didn't like it that way, and threatened to call the cops.

I heard about doing the same thing with the gas can. If any of you want to try out stupid crap like this, let me know.

J2K signing off...

So these Times I Fucked Up In My Life....

I was talking to a friend of mine this morning. I don't want to get into the details, but it took me back when I brought myself and someone else down to the nitty gritty, and that is why today I still cannot get along with my ex-gf.

Laura and I have been dating from october 2003 to about March of this year. I got sick of her quirks, sick of being insecure that she would cheat on me like she has done before (twice...fucked someone, made out with another stranger)...I was working at Newby's then, got off at 8 and she called me at work, saying she wasn't feeling good. So, I went over to her hosue (her parents), stood in her room and she was telling me that she is very depressed that I dumped her, and she was very sorry for all the things she has done to me. I heard that same old song and dance before, and i knew right then that I could not hook up with her again. I made no promises, and she wanted me to start over again.

So anyway, for some reason, I laid in bed with her and we started to talk. I just only wanted to lay there, and I didn't expect anything. Next thing I know, We Cuddled a little bit and then...BOOM, we fucked! Then I got up, started to walk out and she's like "where are you going?" I said "home." "You just had sex with me and you just get up and leave...what are you doing?" I couldn't explain why...Come to figure out I wasn't thinking with my heart that night...I was thinking with something else!

She got me there, i guess I made the asshole points that night. I cannot explain why I did it, but it made me feel like shit, knowing that did something wrong. Very wrong. It's like I wanted a quick fix, took it for granted, and thought it would be alright. That is why I felt bad cuz i hurt her feelings. That would be the last time i'll ever have sex with her.

As days, weeks, months went on, she would rub it into my face that her life is so much better than mine, have her white trash freinds harass me, and did I have it coming? Yes, I did, but she did some damage to me too. She 'almost' slept with one of my friends, messed around while we were together...in conclusion, what I did she had coming. I will admit...I am not innocent either. One time during a fight, we took a break...(something that tells me that we are both single, but we'll make up tomorrow kind of thing). So, my friend Joe (well, he's kind of a dousche-bag) went to the bar with me, and had a drink at the Keg. I had a couple beers, and was just feeling shitty how Laura treated me, how she would threaten to cheat on me and so forth. I took joe home and instead of going home myself, i went to hard times and picked up a black guy that I shouldn't have, who was walking to the bar on the way there. He needed a ride to Hard times so I drove he and his native-american lady friend there (who's bi-sexual). He bought us a pitcher of beer, I was shooting the shit, played pool with him, whatever. Then I sit next to his lady friend. She started to be seductive, and I was tipsy too. Next thing I know, I was making out with her, and worse thing about it...she's 37 years old!! Good God, I'm a creep...I ended up driving them back, go to know some of their friends and this will be the night I will never forget, and I want to forget. They were doing fucking cocaine!! Yes, smoking it from the pop can. I took a few hits of it, and I have not felt so good inside. It took all my troubles away, I was full of energy, it was this feeling that was amazing. I ended up leaving the place around 4 am. Stayed up for the next couple days. It was not a good deal. I regret this moment for as long as I live....

I used to see the black chick that was hanging out there around Linden at times...yea, she lived at linden, where I was at. She told me that it was foolsih, and wanted me to get the fuck out of there the whole night. I don't remember that. One time, this past Christmas Eve, she was not doing anything so I took her to my room, showed her around, talked for awhile and felt bad she had no place to go. She told me that Laura shouldn't know about this, and she was right...Laura still deosn't know. She's nice and all, told me she secludes herself from those druggies but i still do not want to have anything to do with her. She moved out, and thank God for that...she was freaky, wouldnt' trust her with a bottle of my own piss!

This other time I was at a party with Laura and her 'slutty friends' out by the fairgrounds. Laura started to flash people, so I got pissed off, found a couple girls making out. Ended up making out with one of them...Asshole points for me again. I was spotted by a friend of Luara's and shit really hit the fan that night....

My relationship with Laura in retrospect was not worth saving all those times, and I just keep wondering why I stuck with her and so forth. Big Rollercoaster ride indeed. The only reason why I think I wanted to stay with her is because I have always had a thing for black girls. Blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice! There was no real connection between us...it was more of a lust thing, and her only wanting what she wants, Miss one way ticket, her.

I can recall this one experience I had with a black girl before Laura that changed my life since then. Me and my buddies, yea, naive 18-19 year olds, went to the Deja Vu in the cities, very classy strip club. 16 bucks to pay to get in...so anyway, this tall black girl walks to our table, and came to me. She was like "Want some of this hot-chocolate?" and I was like "nah..."

...Then, those dumb sons of bitches (my friends) pushed me off my chair, she grabbed my hand and took me upstairs to do a lap dance on me. Son fo a bitch! that cost me an arm and a leg. She took my whole bank account that night cuz she really "liked me" and kept teasing me to touch her. She was talking dirty, and it was very seductive. Damn, if I can get a girl who talks dirty doing freaky stuff...ooooh!! that'd be swell! She wanted me to buy her a gift....and that was the time I hit the road. Hell no, bitch! And ever since then, my eyes have been glued to african-american girls and what can I say, I succeeded, kind of, but the bitch did me wrong! Another thing I am guilty of and that is going to that strip club! I have not been there since, nor will I ever go back to a strip club.

The OTE land parties...they were interesting alright...I don't think i'll ever go home with a sorority chick again, let's just put it that way....very, very bad experience and did not like what i saw the next morning!!

The Genuine-Asshole is signing off...

Metallica....

Scott called around 1 am last night, giving me a 'stoner' call. Had to get up to do some detassling (he's a foreman). Anyway, we starated to talk rock concerts...how moondance was awesome, the CRUE will be coming, and so is velvet revolver. Only way scott will see revolver is if he gets front row to see his idol, Slash!

We were reminising the Metallica concert two years ago, Summer Sanitarium tour. It fucking rocked!! I was front row, giving up the devil horns, banging my head, missing guitar picks that were thrown towards me. Got kicked in the head a lot with body surfing...didn't feel it at all!!


Saw them at Fargo...but we took nosebleed seats for christ sakes!! Sucked ass! Why did we do it? Laura was being a little bitch and my friend doesn't like being around people. Good show otherwise


I screamed to the guitaris "Kirk, you fucking rule..." he looked at me, rolled his eyes, and said "okay..." good times. Just seeing those guys up front were like watching my best friends play up there. we grew up with them all of our lives, watching their videos, documentaries, just feels like you share that brotherhood wtih them. James, scott told me, reminds him of me how humurous he can be, quiet, loves the outdoors. Lars is your average smartass that is fun to be around...would make your day listening to him crack jokes...Kirk just sits behind, quiet, sensitive guy you can tell but plays damn guitar for not being the badass type. I always liked Jason newsted...he was just this wild and crazy guy who kept the energy flowing on stage whenever i see him play on videos. He was also a nice guy, cracked jokes as well. Sucked he left the band. The band held him down, didn't let him do solos which pissed me off...i like them all...I would like to see newsted back soon cuz i'm not used to Rob Trijilo(?????) yet. Doesn't seem to blend in right with the band, but i'll give him 2 years and see if i'll get used to him.

Cliff Burton, the first bassist, fucking ruled the world with bass. Played the Rickenbecker...most expensive instrument ever! I bought the morely wah pedal he played...kicks so much ass...used it when back in the Lp4 days!! anyway, the bus accident took his life, so that is why they jet most the time. Cliff was alive today, i think metallica would take a different direction, and stick wtih their roots instead of their new...shit they play.

I was not happy with St. Anger...no guitar solos. Plus it was shitty times cuz they didn't have newsted and their producer played bass. I don't think they felt the chemistry, but after touring and seeing loyal fans like myself twice already, i'm sure they'll work up that energy again. Hopefully they'll rock.

But anyway, i will always like metallica, and stick with them no matter what they do. I feel like I am part of their band, and they inspired me in the first place to play music myself. Hard to let go.

And Cut

J2K

Some Kind of Monster

We're Human, right?

Metallica


These are the eyes that can't see me
These are the hands that drop your trust
These are the boots that kick you around
This is the tongue that speaks on ths inside
These are the ears that ring with hate
This is the face that'll never change
This is the fist that grinds you down
This is the voice of silence no more

These are the legs in circles run
This is the beating you'll never know
These are the lips that taste no freedom
This is the feel that's not so safe
This is the face that you'll never change
This is the god that ain't so pure
This is the god that is not pure
This is the voice of silence no more

We the people
Are we the people?

Some kind of monster
This monster lives

This is the face that stones you cold
This is the moment that needs to breathe
These are the claws that scratch these wounds
This is the pain that never leaves
This is the tongue that whips you down
This is the burden of every man
These are the screams that pierce your skin
This is the voice of silence no more

This is the test of flesh and soul
This is the trap that smells so good
This is the flood that drains these eyes
These are the looks that chill to the bone
These are the fears that swing over head
These are the weights that hold you down
This is the end that will never end
This is the voice of silence no more

We the people
Are we the people?

Some kind of monster
This monster lives

This is the cloud that swallows trust
This is the black that uncolors us
This is the face that you hide from
This is the mask that comes undone

Ominous
I'm in us

Apologies

I want to apologize for the message I wrote last night, in fact, It was my last night to have fun for awhile, so I decided to drink with Andy!! But after hearing that your ex-gf has an STD or something down her throat, and she keeps calling you, it hits you below the belt. I just want to make it clear that I hope I do not find another person like her in my life. So I apologize anyway, just in case I push people away or whatever.....

This is the last week for classes, and I am excited...but not excited for the next couple of days. Still need to complete my travelouge, so I doubt I'll be going out this weekend, which is cool. I need to take a break from causing chaos. I have an exam this morning for Understanding Politics, and I'm not studying for that as usual...it'll be another "B" for the exam. Marxism...been there, done that!! I feel in that class he needs to challenge people more...

This week was wild. Went to Grand Forks last night wtih Big Jon and Andy (Andy is gung ho to pick up everclear (190 proof), as so was I) so I tagged along. Got back, and found messages from Laura "I'm Sick! I'm Sick" and just shook my head, and went about my business. I didn't call her back. Went to Andy's room, and Watched "Some Kind of Monster" by Metallica. Good DVD, everytime I see those guys I feel like I am part of the band. I'll do a metallica post one of these days.

The other night after hanging out with Fuzzy, Rachel gave me a buzz, and I strolled over to her place. Her boyfriend was out of town and wanted to hang out :S (I felt a little uncomfortable, but I have known her since I came to BSU). I know she has feeligns for me and all so that is why it was a little akward. We hung out for awhile, had a snapple, and talked about the good ol' days with her being part of "Snap, Krackle, and Pop" gang here with Mattie and Lisa. We talked about how much Mattie (red-head guy you all may know here) has changed from an innocent, religious type to become a rebellious wild-man. He's still a good guy, and believes in the good Lord, but he just wants to have some fun. I remember this one night these people cut him off druinking, and he just stood up, using the bird "Fuck you, you cannot tell me what I can and cannot do!! All of my life I've gone thru that and I have had it!!" Or when women treat him bad..."Damn Ovaries!!" lol...I relate to him cuz so many girls trampled on him as well as myself. So anyway, I tagged along wtih them at times, but like I said, I am a wanderer...I don't really belong to a certain click. Anyway, we watched fear and loathing las vegas, went to Wal-Mart around 3 in the morning to get some food. I had one of those cakes in a cup from the deli...good stuff. It was nice to get off campus.

Came home, and come to find out I FORGOT that I was to attend a shin dig over at Alex's house. Oh well, I would have gotten wasted and drank myself stupid over there anyway like what I did last night. I had the most terrible gut-rot from everclear...oof-da!! don't drink it fast.

And update on moving off campus...prolly won't happen. You know how some friends like to blow smoke out of their ass, right? Oh well, living here isn't so bad either. It has its advantages.

Drinking, I feel that it has taken control of me lately, and I want to cut down. It's starting to become my freshman year again here and I don't want that. No offense to my friends who live on this floor, but I am glad to get away to a different dorm this fall where I will not be around all that. Make it a weekend thing..but that gets expensive.

I got a new job! I will be doing some cleaning, construction work over at wal-nut to make it nice for everyone there, who eat that God-forsaken food...j/k!

Life is good, classes almost done, and another change in the scene always puts a smile on my face!

I know It's Gettin' Better and the change is going to come my way- Tesla

Laura....

Alright, another clarification...I do not want to find another Laura out there because......

number one, if you are playing to be a cocktease, (or to be politically correct), you only like it to get attention from other guys at this day in age, you aren't worth a damn to me. I have had it. I went thru this shit all of my life, and if you don't care to get to know who i am, you are no friend to me. Stay the hell away from me. Sick of being an instrument to boost their self-esteem!

number two, if you want to be used and just be fuck buddies, no commitments, that is just arlight with me...but don't make it seem like it will be a mountain built out of a mole hill for me. Don't make any promises.


number three...i am not that cool anyway, and it doesn't help that my heart gets played! I honestly feel that ppl are out there to use me, and whatnot. It sucks!

For females out there who read this, i am not saying all females are that way, but it's a shame what I am going thru with this girl, Laura. I just can't handle coming home, listening to her messages and so forth and it got me into this shit mood. I am a little tipsy, and this may seem like it is too extreme to be Jon. Liek you have not seen an angry message from me...

J2K, loaded like a freight train, observing life again is signing off....

Black

Sevendust


Voices call, they call out my name, (my name, my name)

They say I’m different well I’m not the same (the same)
You say you want
To be like me (like me, like me)
Well boy let me tell you,
You didn’t know what I’ve seen

They say the devil
Lives in my soul
(my soul, my soul)
I promise not to let him
Take control


Chorus

I’m minding
My own business.
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong.

Shadows follow
So close behind me
I look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see.

Oh god, can’t you help me
Get out of here?
(here, here)

I feel like I’m living
Deep in hell.

Chorus

I’m minding
My own business
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong


Chorus

I’m minding
My own business
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong

I’m minding,
I’m minding my own.
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong
I ain’t doing
Nothing wrong

Nothing wrong

Ride On

Fuzzy and I hung out tonight. It would be his last night in town. Started to cruise around town as he tried to race fellow cars out there such as that red eclipse and that camaro you might see at Mcdonald's every now and then. Anywho, had a good time hanging out with him since it is his last night in town for awhile. Went to perkins to shoot the breeze, talked about how much he is going to miss this place, worried about his Dad. Dad didn't want him to leave. I know it is hard, but I believe everyone needs to leave home for a good while, and need to figure out the world on their own...like I am (pffftt...four hours away). Fuzzy is actually going Denver so he'll be far from home, building airplanes. Sure am going to miss him. I wish him the best that he drives safe, and comes home safe to his family. I really pity his father and him. It's good to see that fuzzy is leaving the nest where he has stayed in for a long time, and taking a huge step in his life. it will benefit him in a long run.

God Bless you, Fuzzy

A lot of my friends I met my first year have been distant. Lot have either failed out, dropped out, trasnferred, etc. Talked to my friend Lisa today who lives in Florida. Became friends with her at an intervarsity retreat October of 2003. She called me "J-Dog"....stellar. We hung out every now and then and I wish that I could have hung out with her more. I miss her. She is living in Florida now, taking some classes there. She will not come back to Bemidji State..however she will visit at the end of August.

Mattie is one of my best freinds. Legend from Princeton: Land of cheating, white trash women!! (Ask him about it) He lasted a couple years here at BSU...went to the tech for a semester and returned. He was pursuing to be an auto-mechanic. Anywho, we had some great times, working on his probe outside of town. Made some good progress...he is almost done with it! He'll bring that SOB up here this September...wanna race anyone? He and I became close and I could talk to him about anything, and it was great. Had our group of friends up here on 3rd floor, drinking parties just around the corner, in fact. LOL...brought him a bottle of everclear from Grand Forks and mixed it with lemonade (Devil's piss) and loved it! That shit kills.

Cowboy...we all know who the cowboy is. If you don't, you never went to BSU. This guy made me laugh all the time, and if I have a bad day, i would always go to him and shoot the shit. He tries to make the best out of everything. I remember one time watching a movie (huge ass classroom) during Tom Beech's class (movie night), and he just blurted out "Turn this shit off already..." This guy may not be well-mannered at times, and he knows it. He's stragith up, no bullshit, and if you dont' like what he says, take your virgin ears elsewhere!! This other time, i witnessed a fight between him and some guys at the Mad Hatters (known as Get'R'Done Bar now). He put up his dukes and said "You can knock me to the ground, but don't touch the hat!!" Good shit!! He's in texas now, gung ho for Iraq!! Look forward in getting that case of Texas's very own Shiner Bock brew!!

Rachel...she just called me a minute ago. She is living in town at least and works at Wal-Mart. Good to know she'll be around. Aaron, her boyfriend, is from Laporte, and I met all those Laporte guys shortly after. Jesse, Aaron, Matt, Stan, and Wade. I feel like I am part of the town of Laporte now. Ever been there? Has a gas station between two bars and that's about it. Jesse i knew from security, and just got aquainted with that whole town later on. Very cool people.

There were some floor mates i still talk to. Chad is up around here somewhere this summer doing mission work in Red Lake. I think our friendship became lost cuz we went separate paths, but i would like to get ahold of him later on, and see if we can start over again. I am a scoundral.

I wish I could have gotten to know these people better, but I was occupied in a relationship (der der here i go again) but keep in mind that i will never forget these people, and they are important to me.

Ride On

J2K

Country Music

Country music, I used to knock it a lot. Hell, I turned people away from it to listen to rock n roll. Well now, country music is what I have been listening to mostly, especially over the past couple days. I want to get my hands on any Waylon Jennings album out there. I remember hearing he passed away a couple years ago, due to diabetes. I'd give any of his stuff a listen if you haven't heard anything from him. "Luchenbach Texas" can top any bar-listening tune anyday. "Mason Dixon Line" is a good tune as well...

Chris Ledoux is another great musician. He did rodeo for a long time, and kind of started late with his career. "County Fair" is a good one. I have to give The Cowboy credit for intrdoducing me to this guy. Cancer took his life, unfortunently, earlier this year. A lot of his stuff is folky, about the rodeo, and it is just right up my alley.

Then there's good ol' willie nelson. He knows how to rock to this day. Grandma never liekd him cuz he 'sang thru his nose' whatever that means. "good hearted woman" oh hell yea!! Has a Grateful Dead twist to it I think. For sure a sixty song! Has his signature whiskey here in town that I should try out.

Merle Haggard is my dad's favorite...never heard his stuff but i'm sure it's good.

I cannot get any david alan coe off my computer cuz the songs that appear are from someone else that are about racism, bashing homosexuals which is a bit ridiculous. Not David Alan Coe stuff. I have been guilty making those jokes in the past, but it sure as hell isn't my cup of tea. Pry go puchase a CD of his before too long.

I also dig new country music. I have CMT on more than MTV/VH1 now, and it leans more to my style now days. Some great artists such as Chesnay (Way to marry Rene Zellwegger (??) )! Toby Keith isn't bad, i don't care what people say. I'll just put a boot in their ass if they have a problem with him!

Tonight will be the last night I'll see my good frined, Fuzzy for awhile. We will high tail it to perkins around nine, have a bite to eat before he takes off to Colorado. Hope he enjoys what he does down there. Lived here for too long. That way, when I got to perkins, I get to see "Aliah"...well, come to find out her name is "Alaina!!" Feel like a fool. At first, I thought she was a christian girl...oh hell no! She is not as innocent as she seems to be. Fuzzy told me she wouldn't mind getting to know me, and doesn't care that i am a scoundral. Anyway, she happens to work at perkins and I plan to get to know her more.


A Cowboy's Just Got to Ride

The road gets rough and the goin' gets tough, but you know you've gotta
try.
And there ain't now way thery're ever gonna change your mind.
Don't everybody know that a cowboys got to ride.
Don't everybody know taht a cowboys got to ride

-Chris Ledoux


Oh, and good news..be moving off campus before too long. Delton ave...come and visit sometime!

Peace out

J2K

Things I Fear....

I was watching Cheech and Chong Last night, and fell asleep during the movie. I woke up and saw one thing that scared the living daylights out of me...

1.) Nuns:....Awwww...what is with them dressing that way? They seem like zombies too. I really do not understand their way of living. There was a part in the movie when they were stopped at customs, and the police found a joint in their car after it was thrown by those two beloved stoners, as they were getting across the Mexican border. Serves them right!

Anyway, nuns scare me because they wear those hoods, they seem like bitches at catholic school, and imagine being chased by one as she waves a ruler would have me surrender. Something I brought with me from my childhood.

2.) Those damn Umpa Lumpa's from the early willy wonka and the choc. factor: First of all, they are pretty damn ugly. Green hair, orange looking. their eyes is what gives me the hibby-jibbies. Oh, and to give me more nightmares, they have to sing those song!! Why is the world after Jon in that way? Ohhh... i always have to mute it when that song comes on, plus close my eyes. Everyone has a horror movie that haunts them...Well, this movie isn't classified to be a horror film, but this movie sure as shit haunts me!

3.) Mona Lisa...Damn, that picture haunts me to this day. I used to have nightmares of this woman running down the hallway as I was watching TV in the lviing room or something, and she'd tickle me. I cannot handle being tickled anyway. I had that dream quite frequently. I hated going to sleep when I was younger. Goddamit anyway! You show me a picture of Mona Lisa, you will enter into a world of pain! I remember in the cities somewhere going to a pizza place with some buddies, and it was called "divinci's"...walk in there, places is flooded with Mona Lisa paintings. even the place mats, napkins, etc. I will never enter that place again...

4.) Death...I worry about death. Has to be my ultimate fear. It's because I do not know exactly for sure where I will go when I kick the bucket. Heaven, Hell. I also had thoughts being dead physically, not being dead mentally or emotionally. You are living in that aspect, but you cannot move, breathe...you just only have your mind wander and you'll remain that way always! Thought of being trapped into my body, screaming for help but no one hears me, and remain a vegetable but still living scares the shit out of me. That would suck.

5.) Failure....if not all, but most people are guitly of this. I am self-conscience about it all the time. What if I am not doing this right? What if I fuck up? Will they hate me? Am I doing alright trying to get to know this girl? I am cursed by it. Humiliation is a motherfucker, man. Humiliation relates to this I guess. I was working newby's one time, and my pants ripped and everyone can see my boxers. My pants were ripped all the way down my backside. Holy shit..nothing gets worse than that. I had no choice but to drive my ass home to get a new pair of pants. That sucked.

(I will post most embarassing moments on this blog at a different time...this is one of them I guess)

That is all...another day, new things to learn.

J2K

Peace out!

Freebird

Another Skynard Ditty...

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
’cause there’s too many places I’ve got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn’t be the same.
’cause I’m as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can’t change.

Bye, bye, it’s been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can’t change.
But please don’t take it badly,
’cause lord knows I’m to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn’t be the same.
Cause I’m as free as a bird now,
And this bird you’ll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can’t change.
Lord help me, I can’t change.

J2K Is Not Okay...

This weekend sucked for the record:



Went home friday night to once again chill with my friends. Nothing too exciting as usual. Had a few people over at charlie's apartment and hung out. It's a good time, dont' get me wrong, but I am just not happy! I do not know where my head has been at lately. I just have not been happy, and I do not know why.

First of all, my mom has been getting on my nerves. She'll call and ask if I have been taking my meds, sending me money when I don't need it, just nagging me left and right about everything I am doing. Jesus Christ...she not have any confidence in me? Starting to bother me. She's such a worry wreck and I believe that is where I get it from. So irritated with her now. Actually, I have been with her for the past few years. She smothers me too much, has always been protective. Holy shit, You would not believe. Yea, so I fucked up in the past. my first year of college, I pud'ner failed out. I have been doing well latey, and have a 3.0 GPA now. She needs to realize that I'm a grown man, and responsible. Really makes me look bad when she sends me money, pay for this and that with car insurance, liscence tabs and so forth. How can I get my feet wet with real life, y'know? I know some would be thankful that their parents would do that and some would wish their parents would help them out. I do not want to take advantage of this whole thing by any means.

"Now Jon, I am not going to preach..."

I hear that all the time...this woman drives me insane.



I had charlie come up here on Saturday, and we took shots early and headed for the party. I was pissed off with Saturday night. It was an engagement party, and this friend, Elly, was throwing it at Cooper's house. At an engagement party, people should respect the fact that they are there to honor you, and to show you that they are happy for you. Well, when I got there, those "moochers" were like "Hey, let's go to the Ubar..you have a car!" So we all went to the U-Bar, Charlie included, and it wasn't bad...However, I wanted to stay at the party and be at one place. Those people showed they aren't truly friends with Elly and her fiance, and I didn't blame her for going home. I hope she is not mad at me. Anyway, we all went back there after the bar, and things slowed down. It was shitty. Charlie and I just went home and passed out. He told me he had a good time, but I think he could have had a better time.


So out of the flesh now with Friends walking all over me with bumming rides here and there, thanks to moondance I am broke again, classes frusterate me. And of course ALL THAT GODDAMNED ROAD CONSTRUCTION ON THE WAY HOME!!!

I just wish sometimes I don't get aquainted with certain people that abuse the friendship I have with some of them. Tyrone and some of my international friends have pissed me off lately cuz of that. Fuck man, they have lived life long enough to know how to be responsible for themselves. Ty's a shady guy, and I don't think I want to hang out with him anymore. Don't feel like I can trust him. Comes out as creepy to girls that is for sure. Thing about him he's cheap. K, here I go again being racist (not really)...He's black, and uses that to intimidate others so he gets what he wants. Yea, I would hate to piss him off cuz he's huge and shit. He'd beat my ass..not the type of ppl to get aquainted with. But anyway, I'm just going to try my best to avoid his sorry ass. When we were at the U Bar, Charlie had to pay for this girl's drink for Ty! Why? I don't know..he's cheap, and a very lousy human being. Ty had him pay for a drink that he offered to this girl, and thought he had a chance with her. (he ended up getting SOL with her...she just went to another guy). DENIED to the Poor, Selfish son of a bitch!!

Curt, I cannot wait to see your comments on this one!

Ohhhh...I am sick of being me! I wish I was not this genorous. I want to be able to have a chip on my shoulder, and have more of an edge to myself. That is why i want to join the military, and build up my self-esteem, and to become a man. I can challenge myself in that nature..

I can also challenge myself by traveling the world for a living!

I'm happy to know that I can say "Someday, I'm going to move out west to breath the mountain air!" I will be away from civilization, and being placed in an environment like the way I want it.

I am a wanderer indeed. I am always around town somewhere, and never have been in a click or belonged to a group of friends. I have a couple who are very close indeed, but I just wander, heh! I imagined resting my head at different places on the map. Beginning this summer around May, I have been thinking of drifting all over the US, meet up with different strangers, work some odd jobs here and there, and then keep on rollin'! I won't have a car, hell no. I want to walk every inch of the trail. I feel if i settle at a place for a long time, I will not be happy. Everyone needs to leave their comfort zone in their life at some point, y'know? Go out there, meet new people, experience new things. That's life. That is what my firey passion is right now...leave this town whenever, pack light, and hit the road. Then you will find out for sure if I mattered to people out there or not, who would actually care for me when I am gone.....I have always wanted to cause such controversy.

Who knows, I'll try it for awhile. Maybe I'll be happier with myself. Don't have to worry about getting close with anyone and so forth. Don't have to let anyone know me a whole lot. Just drift away....


I am exhausted to beat all hell. Looks like a Movie Night and I need a good laugh...I am feeling "Cheech and Chong: UP In Smoke."

Chong: Here, man, mellow out. Here, take this
[Cheech swallows the capsule]
Chong: No, wait a minute don't take that.
Cheech: [Worried] Hey, man; what was that shit you gave me?
Chong: Man, that was the most acid I ever saw anyone take at one time, man.
Cheech: [panicing] Acid! Man, I don't mess with that shit, man. A guy in my neighborhood took some once, his head swelled up and everything, man!
Chong: [laughing] Ho, ho, ho; man, I hope you're not planning on doing anything for the next couple of months.

Classic.

J2K, signing off for the evening...

Peace, y'all stay strong!

Ride home...Still Not feeling all that great

So i went home to get away from a lot of crap from Bemidji. Laura (We all know about her) and so on. It's like I meet a certain girl, and have high hopes but nothing comes out of it. I want to explain something about me. I am very emotional. I have high expectations and I am cursed by it...I end up not gaining anything at the end. Woe is ME!!! I have a thing for black girls, always have, and it drives me crazy til this day and that is why I took a stab at laura and it all backfired. Wasting my time posting this..I truly am. Oh well, good ol' white trash natty ice can do the trick.

Anyway, I am not going to name names or anything but I met this girl, thought I had a lot in common with her but I am going thru some crap that I am expecting a lot more than I should be, y'know. Maybe It tells me I should get to know myself. It tells me that "Hey Jon, maybe you should get to know yourself more before you expect something from this girl or any other girls." What the fuck? Y'know? Whenever I see her, no matter how many girls are around, no matter how atrractive they are, I only see her. It's like "She is all I see!!" How can I go about this...it's frusterating!! I have a lot going for me but she is on my mind.

I met some cool people at bemidji, esepcially on campus. I know some higher ups thru res life, some profs are friendly with me. I went to open mic with my homeboy Yussaup, who's an RA at Oak this summer.. Cool shit. Renatta has alwyas been a good help at linden... Most the ppl at linden are close to me. Chigo, Jesan, Amber, etc. The four corners of Bemidji I know, but for some reason i am miserable and I do not know why. There's Aaron and Rachel downtown, Holly and Cassie near wal mart, Saku at the northwest end as well, Dave on Irvine, steph on north irvine, Cooper on Birchmont, My Bob Dylan homies at Nymore who ROCK the hizz-ouse!!! Damn, life should be good. Dont' know why I hate what I see in the mirror these days.


I am not the type of guy looking for a quck fix. I passe dthat down many times at bars, etc. I have more self respect for myself than that cuz I was close with someon ein my life, but however, maybe i need to experience more to see what I want rather than fix my eyes on one thing. I was not all that greatful for one night stands..anyway, just cannot describe how my life sucks right now.


Insecure am I? You bet your ass I am. My weakness.

Litchfield is great an all and cannot wait to bring my best friend Charlie up this weekend. We'll be on Birchmont, partying it down.


Peace out

J2K

Nothin for Nothin

By Cinderella

When you see your face in the mirror
Does it seem the end is gettin' nearer
All your life you spent as a wheeler
Now the hole you dug, it gettin' deeper

You're talkin' words
But they don't make the rhyme
You'll lose it all
Cause you can't draw the line

You got nothin'
Nothin' for nothin'
You're hurtin' overtime
Nothin' for nothin'
And we don't need your kind
Nothin' for nothin'
Pushin', shovin', got no time
Nothin' for nothin'

When you see the day gettin' darker
You can run to your lies, run to your cover
When you feel the heat from a lover
You hit the highway lookin' for another

You made the grade
You left the hills behind
You take the the cake and eat it
You're so blind

You got nothin'
Nothin' for nothin'
You're hurtin' overtime
Nothin' for nothin'
And we don't need your kind
Nothin' for nothin'
Pushin', shovin', got no time
Nothin' for nothin', hey

Nothin' for nothin'
You're hurtin' overtime
Nothin' for nothin'
And we don't need your kind
Nothin' for nothin'
Pushin', shovin', got no time
Nothin' for nothin', hey

Nothin' for nothin'
You're hurtin' overtime
Nothin' for nothin'
And we don't need your kind
Nothin' for nothin'
Pushin', shovin', got no time
Nothin' for nothin', hey

Nothin' for nothin'
You're hurtin' overtime
Nothin' for nothin'
And we don't need your kind
Nothin' for nothin'
Pushin', shovin', got no time
Hey
You're hurtin' overtime

Y'all wanna blog? You got it...

J2K is back.

Was told by many J2K'aholics out there that their buzz was worn down cuz I haven't posted a blog for awhile, and announced my leave of absence. Why did I announce it? Well it was because 1) I would bitch about Laura regardless (God, she's such a fucking bitch) and 2) I would post lubby dubby stuff drunk about nonsense 3) Eh...I feel like I'll bore you all.....


Been an adequate week. Classes and shit gets old, sick and tired of my euro geo class and it can go straight to hell!! nothing but lecutre and bullshit. I haven't done anything with my virtual tour for the past few days and I am behind. OH well..Sunday I'll work on it. And also, Laura and I have been on speaking terms kind of, and it just always results into bringing up the shitty past, and ruining my day. She can go on with her life being jealous, trying to make me feel miserable all she wants (since she is miserable herself) and wants to bring ppl down to her level. I went to see a movie tonight (wedding crashers...must see) with my friend Fuzzy, and some of his posse. I met them, and one of them happened to know laura. Aliah is her name, and we all went to applebees and I shared some boneless wings with her. She said she has sworn she has seen me around before. She asked If I was in such and such classes with her and come to find out, none. Then I told her "been out to newby's market? I dated Laura newby..." and she's liek "no way, i knew her in high school...isn't she wasting her life away at bars?" hahah!! laughed my ass off. I go to bars at times...I'll admit. Anyway, I was going to tag along with Aliah and her friends tonight, but come to find out they were going to do bible study. All good and dandy, but I wasn't in the mood with all do respect...

My friend Rory (from Jamaica) also made me feel good about not being with laura. I ate lunch with her the ohter day at the union...did small talk and then, of course, bursts out saying "I saw your girl on irvine the other day..." and i was like "oh relaly?" and she's like "Yeah, she was going thru some road rage, honking the horn at me and being a rude bitch...didn't knwo it was her at first...then we got to the stoplight by the post office, she made a right turn, and I saw her...."

"Hate to say this, Jon, but everytime I see her, she comes out as "cheap"!!

"she gives you a hardtime, tell her that you are with ME and I'll put her into her place"

Amen, Rory, amen....

Woah, that made my day. getting rid of her has done me for the better. I made so many friends, got that good ol' feeling that I have interests in other girls out there. Being single feels damn good. Haven't felt this way in over two years. I am meeting a handful of people and it is just amazing on what you find underneath you. I mean, I got to know my friend Curt better. Goddamned, I felt like i pushed him away. I felt like I pushed all my friends away, and knowing they'll be there throughout the hardtimes and etc, I cannot take them for grarnted.

I ended up partying at a friends house, cassie's. Was a good night, I made the best out of it. Good to see Steph, Andy, Cassie, steph's friends, ect. Got me a 12 pack of keystone to take the edge off. I sensed some tension over there, but tomorrow's another day and things will be fine. Some gave me shit for shutting down my blog, due to my insecurities to what ppl might think of the stuff i explain on my blog. I am only fooling myself, y'know. fuckin aye. After talking with steph..fuck it with what people think, right? I am pouring out my soul. I meant what I said about my best friend scott. I keep all my friens close. What is with this shit about keeping frined's close but keep enemies closer? That is a bunch of bull. I want to push my enemies far away, and keep traveling down that road and leave them behind. Same thing goes with finding a girl. You drop off the one who does you wrong, breaks your heart, and keep driving forward...dont' turn back. You'll find that one miles ahead...may take time.

My friends fucking matter in my life, dude. Most important thing I value. I am making up to them for wasting my life, taking abuse from Laura..etc etc bitch bitch bitch. They have always come first before laura deep down because they made me happy, they fullfilled me. Laura only treated me like shit, and godamnit i can't get over her cuz she made me so angry i cannot help it.

Earlier this week, I was drinking a lot and Yes, I ask myself...why? Why do i want to put myself thru drowning my sorrows...living everyday to forget about my depressed way of life? Why do I do this to myself? Why do I hate being lonely? Why Do I hate feeling incompotent to not find someone out there to make me happy? I beat myself to death everynight and enhance it all with alcohol. I am not confident, and I belive that I was so ignorant to let someone fuck me over like she did.. I need help.. can anyone help me get over the bullshit she put me thru? I hope she takes her way of life to her grave. Fuck that whore!! I am the one who pours salt into my wound...she created me to be this monster who is just enraged with anger... I am the one who lets this Laura monster eat me up...fuck it all!!

Oh, and poor her..told me she has warts down her throat and doesn't know what it is...haha! sucks to be her. We all know where she has been....

Well this is what I posted, telling you all about my fucking crappy week

J2K

Blog Is On a Leave Of Absence...

I am closing this place up for the season. I said all there is to say, I believe, and posting posts day after day may bore some people.


This is Jon, signing off....

My Friend Scott...

Scott without a doubt is my best friend. He moved to Litchfield from Iowa before sixth grade (fall of 1995). Coolest guy in the world!! We have known eachother since sixth grade. I remember the day...about ten years ago. It was the fall of 1995 and we were riding the same bus home. I sat like two seat ahead of him, and we talked basketball. The comments that inspired me to get to know him was "Charles Barkley is an asshole" lol, will never forget that. He seemed to have this attitude to not have a care in the world, and hilarious. Next few days, he tole me a bunch of mexicans (not rascist) were messing with him, and he told them that he's a farm boy from iowa, and made it quite clear he was someone you are not to fuck with.

I started to ride bike to his house, since he lived like 5 blocks away. We would get together with neighborhood kids, and play football in this park (Becker park) that had an empty 4 acre lot. Good times, that is how i met my other friend charlie. Charlie was quiet then.. I will post a blog on him later. Charlie and his brother patrick would kick our asses everytime cuz they were athletic and all of that. I would pick fights with scott's younger brother, sadly. Thought it was entertaining cuz Ross was a cocky bastard. I will never forget those days...good to play every sunday afternoon after catching a vikings game.

As Scott and I got older, let's say 7th grade, we got into music a lot more. We would shoot baskets and blare Bon Jovi. Aerosmith came first, but it emerged to Bon Jovi. "Lay Your Hands On Me" was the song to blare as we played basketball. oh My! I'd kick his ass at times, he'd kick mine. We JOined sports togehter, had the same classes, same jobs (and got sick of people calling us gay in school)_. Scott and I ran the cemetery in Litchfield for awhile,a nd that kicked ass!! Too bad for their insecurities then, I was thankful that I found a true friend that would remain for the rest of my life. These guys didn't know any of that then. He's a genuine guy, and means no bullshit! You talk to him, he'll tell you flat out what is best for you, if he likes you or dislikes you, etc, etc. He's too nice of a guy to be blunt, but he is the absolute genuine guy. he doesn't even hate people...he just hates the things they do is how he puts it. We go way back...from playing SNES to riding to the local gas staion to have a dew on the picnic table, talk about how screwed up people are in our grade, was good times. What we meant by saying "screwed up" our peers were in our grade, we talk deep about their homelives and shit since it was a small town..not just beause they were assholes. We went below the surface. We observe, and tell it how it is why Litchfield Society is screwed up wtih political bullshti here and there. Example: How sport coaches were dads of so and so and played their sons and their friends...oh yes, fucked up!

As we got into music, we were hardcore 80's rock fans. We didn't care for the 4-chord progression green day or any of those other bands play. We picked up the guitars, you are guranteed to hear some Zakk Wylde or Randy Roads riffs. Perhaps Hendrix...anyway, we wanted a band. We were in a few bands togehter cuz we couldn't do music without eachother cuz we both shared common ground in that nature, and wrote how we felt, played how we felt, and understood the direction we wanted to go!

One day in football practice my sophmore year, we were lifting weights. He told me "Bergstrom, what the fuck are we doing here?" "I dunno..." "We should go home, grab a couple mt. dews, write lyrics, and start some shit!!" "Sounds good, Scott"

We ditched the weight room, went to his place and wrote some shit. Music and lyrics...we worked from that day on, and formed "Lp4" we recruited Charlie and our frined Justin to join us. I know they didn't feel it as well as we did, but it was still a good time. We told them what to do, how to do our music. Dictators we were!! They went along with it, since they thought it would be cool to be known (is how i interpreted as). So anyway, we successuflly did an EP (demo) before scott moved to illonois.

Scott and I understood eachother. Man, He was there to stick up for me and vice versa. We were practically twins. Now days, you can call us the toxi twins like Aerosmith for being drinking buddies (actually, that'd be Charlie and I). A lot of comon ground. He was my brother, man. I miss him a lot.

I was wtih a girl at that time Scott told me the announcement of his move. When you are high you never wnat to go down, right? October of 2000, I had my first girlfriend, Riley. Nice person, was very sweet. I jumped into things way too fast and took things for granted with her. I didnt' care to know her cuz I was flying high, had a band, life was greater than ever. Scott told me one day in november at a party he was moving to champaagne, illonois. I was devastated. My world came apart. I didn't care for anything at all. My family, My gf, everything can go to hell.. the only person in my life that I shared common ground with was moving away. Not sounding gay or anything but Scott's my best friend, and without him, i'd be nothing. I was very dependent on him. He moved that following March after making a demo with Lp4, and everything turned worse. I was a dick to Riley, and I should have had more patience with that. I was mad at the world. Blamed God, blamed Scott's dad, everything. I dumped Riley as soon as Scott came back to chill for the following summer.

Since scott has moved, i have been focusing on myself a lot, and found out a lot of myself, and had to take into consideration my time is now to get to know me. Since scott's move, I have been going to college, got into a serious relationship with another girl, Laura, and shit hit the fan later on. But there wil always be scott throughout these hard times. Everyone should know that for a fac tthat YOUR BEST FRIEND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE!!

Last time I visited Scott, we 'toked up' at a bridge behind his house. Very dark outside, got pretty ripped. This was in Champagne Illonois. He has been thru some downfalls like I have...took a break from college, dumped his girl for doing him wrong, and just wanted his best friend to be there. I would say "Laura's a no good whore" and told me that he wasn't happy with his girl. We talked about shitty women, our unhappiness in life, but hanging out with eachother erased all of that. My goal is to ressurect Lp4 and get shit underway wtih that with him. I am happy when i play music with him, and there's nothing else like it. We create something huge using our minds, our knowledge of what music is, we will possibly become big. Not to brag...it's more of a passion thing.


I question why I am here at BSU...I think my heart belongs to make music. He and I will dominate.

Scott Pullins is the most coolest person that I have known. (not to sound gay) YOu all would be missing out if you didn't know him.

Peace Out

J2K

Moondance: The Finale

This week was wild. Unfortunently, Moondance Beat My Ass tonight and Cinderella threw the last punch!! At least I caught a guitar pick!! I bought a T-Shirt of their's.. Great band! Always liked what I hear from them!

Saw Dee Snider minging with the roadies backstage. He must be a friendly guy...sadly, I am missing twisted sister as we speak. Never really got into them anyway. At least I saw him in person, though!

Firehouse and Ratt were good...could have been better. Firehouse didn't play long enough and Ratt's lead singer cannot fill the shoes of the original one. I was so rocking out to Firehouse and it was too bad they only played a total of 6 or 7 songs.

I will never ever forget about this week. I was satisfied and got my money's worth. I avoided the booze when the top bands took stage because I wanted to focus and make it worth while..remember it all.

.38 special- 10: Knew how to perform and all of us can feel it! They opened with "Rockin' into the night" and closed with "Hold On loosely" They kicked a lot of ass!! Had a lot of rockin' tunes for these old guys. I gave them a 10 because even though I didnt' know half of their songs, they got me convinced they are legendary, and know how to ROCK!!

Lynard Skynard- 9: Of course, they played some kick ass songs, great stage performance. They did it all good except they didn't play SIMPLE MAN!!

Loverboy- 6: From what I heard, they did well. Not my style of music really. I gave them a 6 because i didn't recognize the songs and wasn't my cup of tea!

Grand Funk- 8: Unfamiliar with their stuff, some songs did not stand out. I'm sorry but always have to consider "American Band" to be a great anthem!

Cheap Trick: 10: Oh yes, they made it to number ten because they played like they didnt' want to stop!! They gave us some great licks, good entertainers. I have always loved this band to death. "Surrender" electrified the crowd!! No stopping these guys.

REO Speedwagon- 7: I didn't think they were a good band to enclose Thursday Evening. I would rather see Cheap Trick take their slot. I don't care much for them. I don't know why...catchy tunes, have some powerful stuff, but I think it is too sappy for me. Maybe If I have a girlfriend, i would feel different :S

Tesla- 10: Two words- fucking great! They play some loud and heavy stuff! Powerful voice. The cowboy song is so rocking, i had it blaring in my car today! "Love Song" is another favorite of mine!

Journey- 8: Everything seemed right how they got a new lead singer to take Perry's place, sounds exactly like him, played the songs that I wanted but they didn't have a good stage performance. They didn't seem to be into it and I guess that is fine. Almost like "Oh Walker sucks we don't need to play good..." pffft!!

Firehouse- 8: Hell Yea! Been waiting to see these guys forever. Wished they played more. I didn't know a couple of their songs cuz they played those from their new album. Electrfying they were, but kind of toned down the energy factor by quitting early. Seemed like they were only up there for a half hour!

Ratt- 6: I only liked how they played "Loving You is a Dirty Job" because I have been listening to that song a lot for the past month, but other than that they didn't stand out to be all that good. The new lead singer doesn't have the voice like Pearcy does, and the vocals sounded muffled anyway. Boo!

Last in line

Cinderella- 10: There is a God! I was right up front for these rockin' motherfuckers!! They still got it. "Night Songs" was the best choice to open their act. They did everything from playing slide guitar, sax, to the good ol' piano. These guys can play music! You may think for a hair metal band, they woulnd't have that talent...bullshit! "Don't Know What YOu Got" is one of my fav's, "Coming Home" "Last Mile" You cannot complain! I caught a guitar pick from them so that might be another factor why they got a 10! They closed with "Shake Me". Awesome AWESOME band. It was like seeing a big time band. They promised us they will be back EVERY YEAR AT MOONDANCE.

Went home after getting my ass kicked. Sorry Whitesnake and Twisted Sister..I had a good time, and it was well worth it!

Be back next year, in a tent, case of beer, enjoying my tunes.

Peace

J2K

Not Your's Anymore....

This is how i have been feeling lately, keeping a positive attitude throughout a lot of crap I have gone thru over the past few months. Why? Let's just say Laura Newby...nuff said! No matter how many times people try to pit us together, no matter how many times bring her up, no matter how many times I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF HER, This song is dedicated to me. this song is also for those who are experiencing some hardships with relationships and moving on!!


Baby No More

Cheap Trick

Don't wanna be your baby no more
Don't wanna be your baby no more
'Cause I work so hard to get this far
Then one day I hear you say hey
Don't wanna be your baby no more

You buy a nickel you drop a dime
Too much of nothin' every single time
It's no surprise I've heard it all before
I don't wanna be your baby no more

Don't wanna be your slave no more
I'll be last dog at your door
'Cause I work so hard to get this far
Don't wanna be your baby no more no more no more

Hidin' in the corner shoot what's goin' on
Trouble down on Main Street can't get to a phone
Problem after problem don't know what's the score
I don't wanna be your baby no more

Solo

Don't wanna be your baby no more
Don't wanna be your baby no more
Don't wanna be your baby no more
Don't wanna be your baby no more
No more no more no more no more no more no more

Moondance: Day 3

Jesse and I hung out at his uncle's cabin for the most of the night, and hit zona rosa's mexican restaurant in Walker. Great food, I have to thank his family for buying. He didn't want to go to the show tonight really and I could tell. I think he just wanted to chill out with his family. That was cool, however, I think I will end up going there without him tonight and there are reasons.....

Didn't make it to the site until 9 o'clock or so. Got there just in time to see Tesla \m/!! They were incredible!!! Takes me back..way back when they hit it big. They had some great killer new rock songs. I was very into their show. I hope Cinderella will be just as great, if not better.

Journey closed the show...awesome band to do so. Jesse and my party told me to meet them at 11:30 so they can leave...what the fuck? Why did we even go? I shoulda went myself!! Journey closed the show for one thing, started at 11. The new lead singer isn't Steve Perry, but sure as hell can pull it off. "Wheel in the Sky", "Don't Stop Believing" "Faithfully" was a dream come true to see....did have a lot of people be idiots and got tossed out. I'm glad the security made ti so we can all enjoy the show. I kept trying to catch guitar picks but didn't succeed. sucks!

Yea, so it was 1:20 when they finished, and Jesse and his group took off without me 2 hours before that. I was a little pissed off. He finally gave me a ride and we drank more at his uncle's house. I didn't drink that much last night. I never really do when i see my bands play. I want to reemmber the show at least. So we sat there, visited with his cousin, and I got to know about their family history and so forth. It was cool...

We took off at around 4 am...keep in mind we were drinking. I had only 2 beers at the cabin. Next thing I know, a cop pulls us over!! Shit! Jesse was loaded. Jesse got out, and next thing I know like 15 minutes later the cop told me that he was under arrest, and will be in the county jail! Fuck! what am I to do now!! So I ended up guiding the tow truck to his uncle's house to drop his car off. I had to pay 60 bucks for it thank you very much. I got out, drove the car in the driveway and crashed inside the car for about a half hour. His parents were at the cabin luckily so when they came out and aksed where jesse was, I had to be the asshole friend and told him he ended up in jail. Oh were they ever pissed!! So i took jesse's car to Laporte, picked up mine, came home around 7 and went to sleep.

Who knows If I'll be going tonight. I don't think he will. I should have been wise enough to drive the fucking car instead of him. I feel bad this happeened, but it's moondance..it happens. I hope he ends up okay. I didn't mean to rat him out but how else would he get bailed out? I sure as hell couldn't pay for it!!

Y'all be safe! Everyone wants to have fun during this special time and don't drive drunk!

Peace

J2K

Moondance: Day 2

Better show yet! Jesse and I got there around 3 o' clock, and walked around, got some barely pop. Sat on the hill, mingled with people and had a few beers (I had more than a few). Loverboy took the stage..they are alright. I dig "Turn Me Loose (My way??) and "Working For the Weekend."

After they took off stage, Grand Funk Railroad came on. Great band! I liked their version "Locomotion". Great ditty. Exploded with "American Band" For their encore. Hella Sweet! I held a woman up on my shoulders (shoulders are sore as hell now), and this woman wanted her neice to get to know me, but her neice was too embarassed. She was 21. this woman was forty. So she was macking on me and stuff. Jesse stood next to me, with a shit grin. He told me he thinks it is funny that I attract women that are old enough to be my mother! Yea, oh well. I gave that woman a hug, and told her to have a great day.

Cheap "fucking" Trick was up next! Love these guys and they should have had the honor to close the show! Rick Neilson busted out the five neck guitar and rocked out with that. "surrender" is my absolute favorite from these guys. Also dig the 70's show theme. "Want you to Want Me" is a classic. I didn't know the bassist is from Minnesota. Killer band...so going to get VIP pass next year to hang out with my favorite bands. Hopefully they'll come back in the near future.

Finally, REO took the stage. Love their tunes. They come from champagne illonois where my best friend lives at. Sadly, I have not really listened to REO in the past, so once again i felt like an idiot up there with some die hard fans. I got to know these people that were hardcore fans. Seemed pretty nice, had me block the stampede from the back that wanted to go all the way up front to see the band. Good stuff.

Came home, went to bed and brought in my car early this morning to get my brake cylinders fixed up. No problems with that. Now I am studying off and on for a test. BSU just picks the right week to have exams...shitty! Moondance comes first I believe, cuz it happens once a year. Grand Funk Railroad said it best:

We're an American band
We're an American band
We're comin' to your town
We'll help you party it down
We're an American band

Peace Out

J2K

Moondance: Day One!

38 Special and Skynard were amazing!! Jesse's the man to get me tix for half price! I was going to get some more tix for some of my other friends, but it didn't work out, and my deepest apologies go out to them. Anyway, Daisy Dillman band weren't bad. I had a great time! I was shoved up all the way up front for Skynard when they closed. The Keyboardist, Billy Powell, gave me the devil horns back to me after I waved the horns in the air! A lot of energy for these old guys. Skynard knows how to Rock!! (But those rat bastards didn't play "Simple Man!!")

38 Special...not too familiar with their stuff all that much. I did have a 45 year old woman hit on me, grabbing my shoulders and was like "Oooh you must work out!"...and I said "Not really"..saw my friend jesse two rows back, so i went back there to avoid her. You'll get that at concerts. I also had a woman mack on me at a Metallica concert. I was banging my head as I was getting water, and everyone noticed my long hair, and I caught her eye. She started to make moves on me, tell me that she was looking for her 16 year old daughter..and i was like "What...??" I was 19 at the time. She wouldn't leave me alone. Although She wasn't bad looking, her hands were rough as a rock! ewww...

Okay, anyway, during 38 special, Only know 3-4 of their tunes so I kind of mouthed words like an idiot most of the time. I was up pretty close for that show as well. Donny(38 special) and Jonny Van Zant(skynard) are brothers, so it was phenomenal how skynard and 'special had a back to back show going. I have their CD..Van Zant's "Get Right With the Man". Good tunes, dedicated to the late Ronnie Van Zant of Lynard Skynard, the original singer.

More shows to come. I will type some more on Moondance. To my friends that I tried to get tix to...I am sorry, I should have planned it all better. Hopefully I'll see some of you there anyway! It's always a good time to rock out and escape the world.

Peace Out

J2K

That's How I Like It!

Lynard Skynard

Let me tell ya...

Where I come from it's grits and gravy not champagne and caviar
Got pickup trucks, ain't no mercedes, that's who we are [Oooooh.. Yeah I wouldn't change a thing]
I ain't no saint sometimes a sinner and I can't tell you why
But I get up every mornin' and thank the man above [Oooooh WOOOoo my life is good]

Let me tell ya how good... hahaaa

Like my women hot and my beer ice cold
A real fast car and my whiskey old
Like a slow drive down and old dirt road
That's How I like it
I like to turn my music way up loud
Ain't nothin' better than the sound of a crowd
American flag it makes me proud
That's how I like it

Wooooo...aaah... Listen now...

Ain't no cell phone towers, you won't catch me online
Workin' with my hands for hours, is how I spend my time
And I don't stand in line for coffee, It ain't my cup of tea
Out here in the country we got everything we need Ooooh Woooo yeah..

Like my women hot and my beer ice cold
A real fast car and my whiskey old
Like a slow drive down and old dirt road
That's How I like it
I like to turn my music way up loud
Ain't nothin' better than the sound of a crowd
American flag it makes me proud
That's how I like it yeah..

Ooooohhhh...

WOOooooo That's how I like it

[Whistle]

Like my women hot and my beer ice cold
A real fast car and my whiskey old
Like a slow drive down and old dirt road
That's How I like it
I like to turn my music way up loud
Ain't nothin' better than a Skynyrd crowd
American flag it makes me proud
That's how I like it yeah...
That's how I like it
That's how I like it

WOOOOOoooo

Yeah....

Things that Piss Me Off...

Lot of these that I am going to state are political issues. I was at Understand Politics class today, and thought about things that piss me off here in the states how those "lefty's" like to push the envelope. They like to annoy people more than making a compromise. I enjoy the freedom I have here, and there are so many issues that I observe that in some cases, our freedom will be taken away. Socialized Medicine for instance...taxes go sky high!


First of all, protesters piss me off. War protesters, environmentalists, etc!! That is right. What is up with this shit blowing up SUV's at the east coast, and want to fight the oil embargo even though those people take a frickin bus...that's right, they ride a BUS to DC to protest against OIL!! I mean, if they are not smart enough to realize that they as well ride in vehicles (what they are protesting against), they cannot win in a protest for Christ's sakes!! What does a bus require? Gas, oil, etc. So much small minded people out there. I outta knock em' down with their tag board signs...damn environmentalists they are, who use up all those trees to express their opinions that won't change a damn thing....another contridiction right there. I like my car...it gets me to places. The trees need to suck it up, and realize how domesticated our world is now days! HAHA! Think about the convenience to see family across the border. It's good to have such a luxury.

And about this war? leave it be, people. These people are in the military to represent America for one thing, and they are making a difference over there. I am devastated with the losses we endured for over the past two years, do not get me wrong. These people are willing to die for our freedom, and they have a lot of courage to stand up to what is right,and for the well-being for our world. We cannot be sitting here, twiddling our thumbs, and let these terrorists issue threats or let another 9/11 happen again. Saddam needed to be out of power, no question about it. We didn't kill him, did we? No, we set a good example out of our good will that we keep him alive..and if it were not for us, he wouldn't be enjoying eating doritos...he should be blessed!! Sure, many can argue that Iraq do not have the resources, but the tyranny over there was very heinous. People are joyful, the citizens are joyful that they got our support, Britain's support. It's awesome that we can live in a safe world. United States is just becoming weak with lack of support from the citizens. Would if we didn't do anything to fight the war on terror...we would be panicky as we turn out to be pansys. There comes a time when we have to defend our own, and having DEMOCRAPS backing us down, will not help us to grow! Don't waste your breath on things you cannot change!!

hippie-not-know-it-all: "George Bush is an asshole cuz he is sending people to war..."

Me: "Are you going to war?"

Hippie:...."no!"

Me: "Then why are you complaining?"



Hmmm...I thought about joining the military for the past couple of weeks....



Let's talk about our social well-being for the most part that I dislike. I like to party. I like to have fun. I spend money on booze, junk food, etc etc..but it is the money that I earn, and not the tax payer's. We help out the poor with wel-fare (EBT). They use that for food, get their meals, mother's with low income get a WIC voucher for their children....helping these people out with making goals to get their head above water as they get out of poverty. Sadly, people take a lot of advantage of that by keep trying not to find a job and keep collecting the tax payer's money to spend it on booze, cigs, and so forth. Oh yes, I know many people like that. My simple minded ex girlfriend hangs out with this crowd. I see them at bars with children at home, having too much fun getting drunk, getting tossed out, get thrown in jail, these people never learn! America needs to draw more tough love on these bums, and motivate them to be an actual citizen rather than giving these people advantage to not contribute to society. Stick with Food stamps, not cash for crying out loud. Make some restrictions...no alcohol, no tobacco. Let's put a stop to these lousy bums!!

Abortion...I have two words for abortion: Fuck that! It's murder, period. If couples, fuck buddies, naive teenagers, or whoever screw around at a party or whatever the case may be out of their own will and conceive a child, that means they should take into consideration they are bringing a life into this world and be responsible for their actions. It's fucked up to think that people take the easy way out of consequences like that. You do not abort a child out from something you had all control over. If you do not want a kid, don't have unprotected sex. Period! If you have unprotected sex, and want to take care of the child, if that happens, then that's a-okay! Aborting a child...that's a no-no! It just shows we are a nation that takes shit for granted. You conceive the child, it is your's. Do not get rid of it to avoid responsibility. I will have to point my finger at you, and call you a loser! If you do not feel like taking care of it cuz you were 'too young' that's 'too bad.' Live with teh consequences and be strong, people.

I guess I can lean towards the left if the pregnancy is out of insest or rape....


AIDS is a serious issue. It kills many people. The dems want to do some pork-barrel projects to do stem cell research. Our taxes will go sky high cuz of trying to find the cure of AIDS..I know one cure...do not have unprotected SEX! Period! Cheaper that way. And doing stem cell research for the most part is aborted fetus's...I rest my case. Be careful with sex you dirty scoundrals!!

I respect our president that we have now. He is doing his best to make ends meet. He is our commander and cheif, diplomat, etc. Reason why John Kerry didn't win is because he flowed with public opinion too much, and was just an anti-American himself, due to his antics after fighting Viet Nam. It must be hard to be a president, and to be in 'W's' position during these hard times. It doesn't help that he loses support, thank you Ted Kennedy! If we would have Gore be our president during 9/11, he would be a pansy about it. Look how Mark Dayton backed down from running Senate again...dems are pussies in that way. Bush is making absolute sense on defending his citizens throughout these times with fighting the war on terror.

I do not want to see any changes from what we have. I love America. I will go on about other crap later. I am done venting for now!

Moondance...

Talked to a buddy of mine today who works Security, Jesse, and knows a friend who has 20 tix for Moondance, and has no idea what to do with those...

Yea, so I'll pick the ticket up for 60 bucks, and that is not bad for catching a few shows throughout the four day period at Walker!! Damn, I'm stoked. My mom will be up this week, so of course she'll give me money for gas, food, water, etc. Going to be a good time. Get to see Skynard headline the show on Wednesday...see my favorites such as Whitesnake, Cinderella, Ratt, tesla, Grand Funk, Journey. It's been too long. I need to see these classic rock (or 80's rock) heros for a change. This music is what made me an aspiring musician, and it brings back some glory days.

Finally my dream has come true to go to Walker. Hopefully see some of you there ;)

Peace

J2K

My Dad's Harley...

I'm getting it, and riding it cross country after college. That's all I got to say.

Lp4 reunion's official?

Scott will be up at bemidji/minnesota this August and you know what that means? Lp4 is back. Five year hiatus, baby!

I watched "heavy metal" tonight with some friends and it was purple haze over there, but i pounded in killians instead of the doobie. Was a good watch...great movie for those who are getting wasted....

I was hanging out with people this weekend, and i must say tonight was awesome hanging out with Steph, Cassie, and Cassie's roomate. It was cool acting all crazy, being the beligereant drunk that I can be. I went home after Steph took off, and decided to call Scott. No answer, but called me back before I fell asleep. He told me he is coming up to Minnesota this August. I read off some lyrics to him from the phone that we should work on. He thought they were deep, and I got my groove back, cuz i didn't have the groove for awhile...

When he comes back, I promise to be committed to my music, and remember to love what I do. I kind of put all that on the shelf for this past year, but now I found the passion again. I mean, he's bringing in his sixteen track digital recorder, and get another CD done!! that means guitar, lead guitar, bass, drums, singing, back vocals, everything. We can pull it off...who can play the drums is the question...??... Call this the Reunion EP or something and become egotistical like Kiss...ohhhhhhhhhh!!! We will fucking do it for sure!! I wrote some lyrics just in time for this. what a queek-kee-dink..or something. Lucky son of a bitch is going to see Tom Petty this next weekend.

too tired to say more, but i am pumped!!!

Downfalls of Jon...

Let's face it, I'm a pacifist. I am still at that stage where I put people before myself, and did Holly let me have it yesterday. we were driving around, and she asked if I would give her a ride to the body matrix. I said "yea" and she says "Do not drive me there if you don't want to.." She knows I have an issue with being too nice, and that's my downfall. New Yorker she is, she'll keep working with me on how to be more blunt, and not worry if I let people down, worry what people think, and so on. Look how I allow Laura take cheap shots on me. I do not wish that upon anybody.

I accidently stood a buddy of mine up, Ben. We were to play some basketball after I was done with classes. Had a few interruptions yesterday...Abeeku needed me to follow him outside of town to drop off his car to be fixed, and Holly came. Holly is cool, glad that I hung out with her. Just feel bad that I forgot about Ben. I emailed him a 3 page Email I'm sure with me apologizing. I'm sure he'll think I'll get too carried away. Not a big deal at all in a long run...but that is just me. When I piss someone off, or if i feel like i piss soemone off that is by accident, I'll let them know.

I am self-conscience with what people think still. Maybe it is because of my social anxiety (I'm on the meds). I do not know what to think of the paxil, but it's better than letting shit eat me away to drive me insane.

Weirding people out. when I talk to a girl especially, I think I weird them out in some way and plus I don't think i'm attractive enough or better yet, hold a good conversation with a girl. Women like men with confidence, and if I subtract that element of self-pity and self-abuse in my life, that would be a miracle. But I really should not think that cuz I look around, and see how many people are my true friends, how many people come to me for advice and those kinds of thins make my day. I'm glad that Holly thinks i'm a good guy to take advice from. My other friend too, who is going thru some hard times in her relationship with her boyfriend. And I do not know why I get down on myself thinking that I do not hold a good conversation!!

I worked with a girl out at Newby's. Her boyfriend is total scum, and just a waste of space. he sleeps around, spends their paychecks at the casino, buys drugs and she doesn't do a damn thing about it. Stays with him. She's like a rat that is infested with all this dirt in her life. She'll bitch about it, but won't do anything. It blew my mind that she is like that...

But who am I kidding...I put up with Laura's shit for way too long. I do act tough, say I am OVER her, but deep down I am not. I miss those phone calls, talking in those lubby-dubby voices and so on. Making her laugh, hanging out with her family. She has a great family, and they miss me a lot. I do not know how to go about this, and I would feel weird talking to her mom again, or her aunt. In my geo class yesterday, Switzerland came up, and it made me think of her cuz her anscestors are from Switzerland. I want to tell her that I learned about it, i dunno why. I was also doing laundry this morning,and found one of her socks within my load. Maybe I want to see how she is doing, but I'm afraid to. I'm afraid she'll go into her pity mode that she cannot live her life without me, make me feel sorry for her. I know I am smart enough not to get back together with her. It would be down right stupid for any man to, after what she did to me. But I still worry that she will commit suicide.

I will be honest about this. I think I still love her, but not IN love with her. I still care about what she does, if she is happy, and I do regret saying terrible things to her and to her friends. People go their own way, and thins happen for a reason. There's nothing I can do about that with her own free will after our relationship. I cannot say that I want her to be my girlfriend again, or be technically "engaged" to her again, because I look back there were more bad times than good. I cannot hold her, sleep next to her, knowing that her fields have been tilled way too many times (if you know what I mean). That is just her perspective on living a relationship, living life. She wants attention..a lot of attention, and just wants a guy to have around when convienient. Mine is totally different..a lot different. If I am totally in love with the girl, and the girl is in love with me, I'll treat her like a queen...but i do not understand what love is. I would like to find that in my lifetime to have a girl and myself on the same level as we both know ourselves and eachother. I can go on about this forever, but I don't want to sound cheesy...

So yes, here I am pouring out my soul again on what I do not like about myself, but I do feel being angry with Laura does not help a damn bit. Wish her the best, and hope she is happy. I am not happy with her that is all. Simple as that.


Ramble On....Sing My Song....

Hey Ho, Let's Go...

Woke up after a night of boozing it again. Went to the computer and a friend was online. Told me to check out some Kiss tunes (I hate Kiss). So I did, and heard this track that I have not heard before. "Forever" it was called. I listened to it, and it wasn't a bad ballad. Come to find out later Michael Bolton helped write the song.....I guess that's alright, good for the human ear to tolerate. Michael Bolton did a good job of it I'd say! I sent the track to my bro tonight to see how he liked it cuz he and I used to make fun of the 80's era of Kiss and how their music had bad taste!!

Tonight wasn't my usual Friday night, but it was fun to hang out with different people. Holly gave me a buzz yesterday, and wanted to hang out. Cool (Which Meant she needed a ride to Wal-Mart and Body Matrix ;) ) Haha! Anyway, I don't mind driving her around to run errands..that way I can get what I want at Wal-Mart and check out some peircings that I may get in the future, or possibly another tatoo?

I spent most the evening with Holly. She's a good friend, worries a lot though. Saw her crush was smoking a marlboro outside later on tonight. He's a good friend of mine..big Floyd fan...Anyway, when she, jessica, becca, and i were on a blockbuster run, I had no choice but to shout hello, and I don't think Holly liked that too much. I was like "Hey, let's say hi to him" and she was sooo nervous. She was speechless, and hey, I can relate. I've been there a lot but end up turn out to be a chickenshit when it comes to talking with my crushes. It was funny seeing her reaction as he talked to her. He was like "So, how are you doing?" and she acted like she was talking to Paul McCartney! Classic....

We rented "Life Of David Gale". What a movie...I'll post a blog on the whole bit another time cuz I can go on how liberal nut-jobs were behind making this movie regarding the death penalty....must see movie...

Have a Safe Weekend people, and happy birthday, Cowboy Curt! Nine beers with white russians, tequilla shots, and still on your feet? The Army has done you well!


Peace

J2K

Productive Evening...

Today, after posting that blog I posted about my band Lp4 with my home boys, I decided to write some lyrics this afternoon. (Sh'yea, like i'm going to post them on here for you theives out there) anyway, I just wrote what was on my mind, that kind of thing. Wrote a song called "Cheap Shot" that is dedicated to the bitch herself, Laura. How I let her take me for granted, that kind of thing. I wrote "As My Guitar Sits" is abotu wasting my days, not doing any kind of music thing, or better yet, just wasting my days away period. Thought it would be a good title. Last one I wrote was about damn, can't remember. Should have not gone to Alex's house to drank all those free beers down....

I went to Peppercorn with my friend Tyrone (Ty). Place is a ripoff and the damn waitress didn't know the difference between a leg and a wing! She also had to have us get a huge ass salad before the all you can eat buffet. Ty and I couldn't eat anymore after two plates. Anyway, about Ty...He's cool, he's a lot older than me like 42, and is a basketball coach here at BSU. I drove him home on Sunday, and feel bad that I didn't hang out with him cuz he met up with four girls that night. (Heh, like i would do anything with them)...anyway, He wanted to know If I am willing to be manager for the basketball team...eh, lot of traveling. Seems like they are a bunch of cool guys. I can show them how to treat women right instead of using them like they do (Bastards). I don't like that at all. I went thru that one night stand thing, and it rips you right in two, just to let you all know. Anyway, Ty's cool to hang out with, It is just weird that he is so much older than I am, and acts like your typical player from Chicago, like where he is from. I will get used to it I guess. He's nice though, gets me drunk before we hit the bar. Has me kill off his cognac...HAHA...yea, well look forward getting to know him. I hope he makes the team successful even though I go here (Always have cared-less about school spirit, but hey it's nice to kick it with one of the top dawgs here on campus.). We went to Wal-Mart tongiht as well, said hi to my friend holly who has a crush on this guy (oops, i let the cat out of the bag again) and he bought a flatscreen TV with a DVD player. LOL there was a movie playing in there, and he told the sales guy at the electronics section that he should be able to get the movie for half the price since it was playing..the manager was like very skeptical about it, disagreed but Ty talked him into it. That's the thing about Tyrone..he's a smooth talker. I cannot wait this Sunday for the big cook-out with a case of beer, and joining us will be Abeeku, Rory, Jalia, my friend Dave, Ty, and maybe I'll bring some of my friends....

After we ate at Peppercorn (boo), I stopped over at Alex's tonight to have some free beer to take the edge off. We were playing a card game called "drunk driver" and what a drinking game that is. I will show you all that game sometime. Anyway, I'm a little buzzed, kind of losing it, i drove home like the idiot that i am because I got class tomorrow. We were listening to tunes, but tunes that sucked (south park, stoner sesame street tunes), and i wanted out of there.

Here I am, typing on this stupid thing again about nothing. I had a hell of a day, was adequate, and yea, another day to look forward to tomorrow.

Carpe Diem

J2K

Weirded Out.....

(Okay, i may have told you this story on a drunken blog that i posted last night)


I was online on Yahoo this weekend, and my friend from Kenya im'ed me. We started talking like how we normally talked, and then she asked me "I'm your friend, right? You'll do anything for a friend that means" and I said "Depends on the situation, yo!" and then she said "Well, I need to go back to my country...and I need a husband so will you..."

What the hell?! This girl is out of her mind! I just broke it off with a crazy girl, I am doing just fine being single, well, somewhat. I do not know her too well! She's nice, but a little shady. She doesn't really want us to be a couple, just wants me to be her mediocre husband. And how in the hell do you think that will fly? I'm sorry, I have my own life to focus on. She told me even though we are friends, she would not like it if I have an interest in a different girl and I cannot tell anyone about this...oops! I just did...heh, i told a couple of my closest friends here on campus today. If she doesn't care about my life, and abusing our friendship like that, why should I care? But who knows, maybe she does like me, but that will be naive of me to believe that!!

I will admit...i am a little flattered she has a bit of an interst in me..and i did to for her but she moved to the cities plus she's shady. Knew she was a bit crazy after talking to her a week later. My brother did say I meet a lot of weird people up here lol!

If you get to know this girl, she seems to be very dishonest, hard to trust, and is a sweet talker. Very possesive. She tries to make you feel sorry for her, and seems to get anything she wants in life. She will bleed you dry whenever you do her favors..she won't pay you back. I hear this stuff from other people, and I have noticed it myself.

I have calmed down a little bit, but still I have a lot on my mind with other things. I hope this stress eases up a little, so I can focus on ME instead of other people that are on my mind from day in to day out. I need to be MYSELF!

If any of you saw that drunk message i posted last night, I apologize. That is not me, and I work on limiting myself with alcohol on nights that I drink. Why did i drink last night? Well, this had something to do with it and plus a few other things...

Peace Out

J2K

Lp4 (March 10th 2001 and December 30th 2001)

Roads had glazed ice, Minnesota is a winter magnet with the two seasons we have here: summer and winter! My band, Lp4 had a demo to record that day, and had to drive 45 minutes away to cut the EP. No time to lose cuz our guitarist had to move pretty quickly!

It was four songs, but it was pretty damn good with what the four of us can come up within 3 months, plus we were in a hurry cuz of the guitarist and my best friend had to move to illonois. We drove to the studio with our equipment, I drove my station wagon with Justin (singer), Scott and Charlie (drummer) drove in scott's van. We got there, and Pete the recording engineer greeted us, and had us started! Great guy, had to watch our swearing cuz it was a christian music recording studio, and heh, it was cheap! We cut 30 tracks out of 64 cuz we kept screwing up. We were so unprepared plus Scott's the biggest perfectionist I know!! We called the EP "Tail of four skins"...why in God's green earth was it named this? We had a couple blink 182 fans that were into that toilet humor stuff. We went along with it, but it was just weird....

One song we cut was "Taxi-man" killer guitar riff i came up with on my bass. sounded like your ballsy, Angus Young lick. Scott wrote the lyrics, was about naive kids getting hooked on drugs.

Other three songs I wrote. "Loner", Vision, and Unite. I wrote loner about myself. I always felt like the loner in high school. Never tagged along with big groups of people, just chilled with a couple buddies, even though I had a girlfriend then. I remember writing the lyrics at my job, actually. The song is slow, but the chorus was rockin! I worked at a compost dump. I sat in a pickup truck as people dumped their leaves and branches. Lol...boring as hell. I would bring a notebook and would just write a way. "Vision" I wrote out there as well. I think I ripped it off from Creed's "higher" well, the concept of it. How we were a band, we can kick ass, we are unique in high school cuz everyone else were stuck into their Motors and Sports. Song was fast paced, barely can understand the lyrics.

Unite I think it is cheesy. I wrote it about my friend's moving to Illonois. Slower song, same style as we did with "Loner." Had the verse soft, chorus heavy, and the bridge....how the bass comes in "boom" what a build up!

I will never forget that day. Even though we were fighting, rushing to get the EP done, it was a big part of history in my life. We recorded it succesfully, and released copies at high school. After Scott moved, everyone wanted an Lp4 reunion that following summer in concert, and they got one at the rec center ;)

Scott and I cut another demo at Champaign Illonois called the "New Years Eve 01'" Ep but only had three songs (I sang on this EP). We Did "With You" That I wrote about my gf at the time (i broke it off with her months before this). And did Unite and an acoustic song Scott Wrote "Taking My Heart Away" My favorite track is "Heart" cuz I sang it well, and was more in tune with the acoustic.

Things have been crappy. I joined another band after this, but I wasn't feeling it cuz I was not collaborating work with my best friend. I do not think I can get into any serious band unless Scott is in it cuz we understand we love the same music, We both know what we want, it's great. Not to sound like a homosexual or anything but it's the only way I can be in a band, and write how I write if Scott is there to work with me.

I still have copies of those demos..any of you who want to take a listen, give me a holla! (Also, we have behind the scene footage of the first EP :P)

Take Care

Peace Out

J2K

Learning To Fly

I'm out of a job right now...yes it is true. 1.) They do not have a position open in the mornings and 2.) My classes start at 10:30 and go to 3:30..Lakeside closes at 2! so I'd thought I would flip-flop my work schedule and class schedule that I had first term for this term, but it didn't work out that way. My manager seemed a little bummed, and felt bad for me. Oh well, at least they'll have me back this fall with my hecktic-18 credit schedule!! All my co-workers miss me and I will miss working with them this summer. However, I will go to Dave's party on the 16th and I'm sure Abeeku, Jalia, Rory, and I will hit the bars as usual! They want to hang out, and it's always good to make some friends at work.

I started my understanding politics class today with Beech, and does that ever make your day when you are feeling down. (I was bummed out I am out of a job.) He's hilarious, good ol' Beech. Ask him about peanut butter in Canada... I'm going to start up Euro Geography here at 1:30 and hopefully the instructor will be fair and impartial like Tom is, which is hard to find here on campus.

Finally got my grade back from my Biology class and turns out that I got a "C"!! I feel good about it because I think I deserve a "D". I really took this class for granted, and I feel bad in a way, but she did the calculations and I kicked so much ass, i got a "C". Biology..pffft, I dread going to this class and hated it so much! In my final, I scored an "B" so it worked out at the end.

Today is another changing process for this summer, and I thought using this title "Learning to Fly" by Tom Petty fits this blog like a glove for some reason since this day had its ups and downs, and that's life...if you don't think this song fits this blog, you haven't heard the song enough! lol, jk. I'm going to have to look for another job, and i'm sure res life will find something for me. I can also call up my friend Ben Dosso to hook me up with anotehr job here on campus. heehee...great guy. I had his host parent, Barb Ranson, for my math teacher spring semester. Many don't think she's good, but I didn't mind the class. She made it easy, and she's friendly.

King of the Hill vs. Beavis and Butthead...

I had a good weekend. I partied it up here on friday night, kind of moderate on saturday, and went home yesterday to kick it with my friends at Litchfield after dropping a buddy, Ty, off at St. Paul. Good insight of the city, and it's pretty nice. Never really walked the streets of St. Paul until this weekend. Anyway, at home Tim and I were taking shots for World Peace and I got ridiculously drunk once again!

Anyway, I was flipping thru channels tonight coming home and i cannot help noticing seeing King of the Hill is on practically all night, every night, on FX. Why? I really do not watch the show, i never hear anything great about it from the media and people, and I question myself why the hell is it being put on the slot on FX as if it is saving the station? Makes me miss Beavis and Butthead. Now Mike Judge tossed those guys in the garabage to keep working on this ridiculous cartoon that is displaying simple-minded southerners and there's nothing comical, and it doens't stand out. It is not funny...it is really showing how true southerners are! I guess it is funny in that aspect, but come on...we get the point! Beavis and Butthead, yea they are idiots too, but they are pop culture icons at least, and are worth watching! It's funny, very entertaining. The best part of the show is seeing music video bits, and it is different variety. Sometimes they used to play Johnny Cash. Sometimes they play Alice In Chains. Sometimes they play Run DMC. It is showing what music is cool, shows not so cool music in their opinion. It doesn't matter. It shows all sorts of styles that people would want to go to a record store to buy albums. MTV is shit now with reality shows, (C)rap music (i like rap..well some of it but it gets redundant). Anyway, I like how Beavis and Butthead played stuff from two decades ago that no one hasn't heard of like bands such as "helloween" or "Krokus"..."Ugly Kid Joe" was cool, and if it weren't for this show, I would have not gotten in them. It shows different variety of videos that people can say "hey, this sounds good...I'll buy a King's X CD today" (one of the most underrated hard rock bands ever). Too bad we cannot see nostalgic videos anymore!

Yea, Beavis and Butthead...I understand they got old with the toilet humor and such. But switching to work on King the Hill that is so dry and bland is beyond me! The Simpsons will fall through here soon so Groening can take a new direction like Judge did, heh.

Okay, maybe I went on a rant that got you lost. King of the Hill...boo! I'm sorry, there's a reason why they put brand new episodes on during dinner time every Sunday Night! Fox knows this show sucks, and no one is going to watch this. Same goes for Leno over King of the Hill reruns, Daily Show, etc. Then six am...more King of the Hill on FX during the time when most people sleep or rushing their sorry ass to work! Why do they keep this show on!! GAWWWWW!! What more can they do than to point out an oblivious moron thinking his Native American son is really his own while he is with a white woman who is always with "Jonny Redcorn"? I'll admit, that's pretty funny, but I cannot see how this show can capture anyone else's interest. Main focus is on propane/lawn mowers! Who gives a shit about propane tanks? Who gives a shit about lawn mowers? Who gives a shit about this show!!

I guess it is a success somehow cuz it has almost reached its tenth season so far. I guess there are a lot of idiots out there who watch it...Oh!!! I'm just kidding! I am in a cocky mood...How right to opinion can get us into trouble here in America....