80's Music

Okay, since late 1999, i have been a tremendous closet-listener of 80's music. It was the first deisirable music I was exposed to. The year was 1995-1996, 12 years old, I hung out with a buddy of mine who listened to country (hated it then, dig it now). He kind of was turned off by it when we listened to Aerosmith. Aero is a good band, but it got kind of stale. Then one day, he put in a Bon Jovi CD that had "You Give Love a Bad Name." It was rockin, it was a good song. I needed to hear some more of that kind of stuff. So we heard tracks like "Living On a Prayer" "Bad Medicine." It was their greatest hits, crossroads. Then We started to bring in Poison, Motley Crue, Def Leppard, and Guns N Roses. We would blare that shit playing basketball in public. Good God, I had balls to play that shit in that era where people were stuck with Nirvana, Green Day, and Nine Inch Nails. I was suprised we didn't get our asses kicked. Anyway, we walked around school, thinking it was cool to bring Skid Row and Ratt CDs to school. Wow....we were brave soldiers. Everybody thought we were total nerds, stuck in the past!! Then once I started to grow hair on my chest, here came Metallica, Ozzy Osbourne/Sabbath, Type O Negative, and Megadeth. Great shit, these guys are older but they rocked! At least we listened to true heavy metal instead of nu metal like Slipknot and shit (who sound like they chew on the mic). Then that music kind of got stale. Keep in mind, I never threw away the Bon Jovi, Def Lep music. I always listened to that stuff when no one else is around, unless i know if the person likes them as well!! Now, I listen to anything. Rap, country, and anything that sounds good and I am not ashamed if I have Poison's "Unskinny Bop" playing in my car or "Piggy Bank" by 50 Cent. I like a good variety, and that is the way music should be for ppl...be open minded!!

Star Wars

I have not seen the new one yet (III), but I am a fan. What the hell is wrong with me? Anyway, I watched them all last week (Episode I, II, IV, V, and VI) and ever since then I cannot get the music out of my head, and the quotes. Did you know every scene has music playing? Anyways, I have been a fan for as long as I can remember. The first star wars movie I saw was Return of the Jedi. I remember Jabba the Hut being a giant worm that kind of scared the daylights out of me. Vader did as well when Luke took the helmet off. Good thing they had those Ewoks to cheer me up!! As a young kid at 4 years old, I didn't not understand what a Jedi is, nor what Star Wars was about, but the characters were one of a kind that made me like the movie, as well as the battle on the dessert and the Light sabar battles. I saw the New Hope years later and remember Obi-wan fighting Darth Vader in a sabar war. He smiled, looked at Luke, and let Vader kill him. I was like what the hell? Anyway, I kind of got the hint that Luke was going to be in Obi-Wan's shoes and going back and watching Jedi for the second time, i was like "oh yea". Obi-wan was old, he needed someone to carry the torch! Empire strikes back started out boring to me, until Luke met Yoda. I was like "God this movie sucks." (Keep in mind I was like 10-11 years old when I finished watching IV-VI.) I started to get into it cuz I found it hard to believe that a little green thing like that was a Jedi master. Then at the end, I became sad that Han Solo was captured, and the Empire showed that they have the power in the galaxy. I saw Empire strikes back last out of the series. From thinking it was boring, it became my favorite out of the series because it set the standard for the Star Wars movies. (Being a Jedi was explained more, Vader is Luke's father) As for the Episode I and II, yea, pretty crappy compared to the originals. I didn't like how futuristic they were compared tot he older ones with the computer animation, and didn't have all the characters I was familiar with. However, Lucas needed to show us how everything started with how the Republic turned into the Empire. Episode II is my least favorite, but I came to realization that it was there for story, and it is important for us fans to watch. I am so stoked to see Episode III. Be the last star wars :( Oh well, after I see that one, at least I can look forward to see the Ewok Adventures movie. After that then I will really be :( !!!

Coming home

I drove 730 miles last night with my 1990 toyota camry. Fucking car has got some nuts considering it can put up with at least 144,000 miles to this day. I was tired, stressed out, just wanted to crash!! So I walked to my room and then all of a sudden, I ran into my summer RA. He told me that I had to pack up my shit asap, and get the hell out! I was like fuck that, dude! Number one, Res life knows i have a couple more weeks staying here and number two, he didn't even talk to the hall director about this whole situation. Linden hall is no summer dorm, but I signed up with the hall-stay program cuz the hot water is shut off at the dorm that I have to move to across campus. Guy fucking didn't even know how the hall-stay program worked! He's like 'duh, hot water shut off at oak? i didn't hear about that?' Man, what chaps my ass is he's the RA and should know what is going on. So I go downstairs, knocked on the hall director's door, and told her I was informed that I needed to leave asap by the RA. She was pissed beyond belief about it, so I got til June 1st here, and it's going to be stressfree for awhile! ! Yea, so anyway, the drive home was hell. Kept worryin about my car blowing up, being that it is 15 years old, traveling all those miles. Goddamned, I think i'd kill myself if i took the iowa route. But I drove thru rockford from champaign, to madison, wi and basically stayed on I-94 to the twin cities. Bemidji from the Twin Cities is even one hell of a drive. It was going good until I hit a detour in Akeley, Minnesota. Put more miles on my car and I was freaked out the whole way from there, even though Bemidji is only 40 miles away from Akeley. What is with road construction anyway? No matter the good job they do, they have to work on the same goddamned road three years later...I'll get back to road construction on a different blog. Anywho, I had a good time at Champaign getting drunk and stupid for a few days, and to escape the world. played bass and came up with some great bass melodies! I still got it!! Scott's the friend who lives down there and is my best friend. Good guitar player, and a genuine-no bullshit guy. Great friend to have. Hell, if I catch Scott having sex with my wife down the road, I'd still love the guy to death.

The Big Lebowski

I was in champaign illonois this weekend and wow, what a weekend. Let's just say it was a non-stop party. Although I went to champaign with a lot of unfinished business at home, I had a good time. I don't think I'll drive there for awhile. Anyway, I only got to watch one movie there, and it was funnier than hell. It was the Big Lebowski. I watched while I was buzzed, but I have never Laughed so hard in my life. Jeff Bridges played Jeff "Dude" Lebowski, and played a low-life junkie in LA, and a bunch of goons were after him cuz they thought he owed them money, but it was really another Jeff Lebowski. Those goons pissed on Dude's carpet and lol, it was just a good movie. My favorite part was in the taxi cab, where he told the driver to turn off the Eagles music, lol!! And when he got knocked down by a cop and called him a fucking facsist!! Must see movie for those who have not seen it!

A Typical Night In Litchfield!!

I'm in Litchfield MN (my home town) for a couple days, and what else is there to do in a hell-hole like this place? Go to a friend's house and get drunk. I bought a twelve pack of the 'Beast' (Milawaukee's Best) tonight. I heard it wasn't good, but I don't mind it. The only thing that sucks is you can't get drunk off of it after 12 beers. Anywho, I'm at a friends house and seeing some high school friends. I don't know what to say about a couple of them...still stuck in their bullshit, talk about TV shows/media... probaly need to work on getting laid. Fuck that talking media gossip, it is not for me. I would like to shoot the shit on music at least, but come on, if your topic is talking about the Olson Twins and Lindsay Lohan for the night, you know you need psychological help! And what is with MTV? It turns people into pussies. I was guilty of watching that bulslhit cuz my ex watched the real world fiasco. Oh, I'm suprised I lived through that!! people watch that shit cuz they live in this fantasy world that they will become one of those assholes on cribs or real world! As long as they sit on the couch, eating their doritios and watching that bullshit, it won't happen. Especially those Pop celebs on Cribs haven't worked a day in their life, and get sent to popular record execs from their rich parents. They don't know a goddamned thing about responsibility, and they are the reason why our society is lazy and stupid. Those rockstars at least have a good reason cuz they do it from the heart but Justin Timberlake and Spears can kiss the fattest part on my ass for all I care. Once they turn 30, they'll be checking into rehab, being twisted alcoholics cuz they know at the end they'll get fucked over! Fucking Pop stars, fuck them. Bam Margera..he fucked up! We don't even look at him as a pro skater anymore...we just know him from that damn show on MTV. All he wants is money, and goes to show he has no passion with skateboarding.

Yea, Wannabees for MTV, I laught at. My ex-gf is one of them and doesn't know shit about the real world. As for me, I go to college, work for a degree. When I party, I kick it with my best friends out there. We would do things like fishing or playing music, video games to an extent instead of talking about What was on MTV the other night...oh as you can tell, the ppl I'm hanging out with talk nothing but the media. Someone kill me...kill me now!! Illonois in two days motherucker and I am looking forward to it!!

Saying Goodbye....

A few of my friends had me help them pack their stuff to move yesterday. One of them I met last week. Her name is Florence, and she is from Kenya and lives a floor down from me. She is quite a fireball, is very funny, and very nice. She told me she wished she knew me when she got here in January because she feels bad that she is leaving at least one cool 'guy' behind. I was really interested to get to know her, but it's sad that she hates Bemidji, and wants to go where the real action is....Minneapolis. Seems like whenever you have international students from Bemidji go to the cities, they just want to get the hell out of here, and make their home in minneapolis. I did get Florence's email address, and she got mine. I hope we can stay in contact because she is a wonderful person, very cute, and friendly. Too bad she won't come back up here.

Another buddy of mine, Evans, is from Kenya as well. I was with Lawrence and Sam today (a couple more of my friends from Africa) to help him move his stuff. We had him catch the greyhound so he could go to the cities. Ah....here we go again, Minneapolis. Just kidding...he has family there and will be making his way to Texas. He is a very interesting guy. Fucking energetic as hell all the time. Before he left, I had him drive my car and wow, I guess they have no speed limits in Kenya!! Anywho, I will miss him for sure, and I hope he makes his way back to BSU next year.

Then there's Cowboy Curt. God, I am going to miss the hell out of that guy. Interesting, and he's one of a kind. I remember the first time I met him, about two years ago He got bitched out in my Russia class spitting out his chew in his empty 20 oz pop bottle. Right in front of class...lol. He'd make people laugh and is all about having a good time. Wore the cowboy hat, and everyone knew on campus who he is. That blog about losing the chew one...yea, that's him. He will be taking off to Texas in a few weeks for the Army and I wish him the very best. Thank God for these blogs so I can keep in tough with all my good friends. Dammit anyway, it won't be the same without him!

Fuzzy....going to Colorado to finally find something he'll love doing. I can easily tell he really wants to get out of Bemidji. This guy lived next door to me at oak during my first year here, and tried to get me addicted to halo, but I sucked too bad at that game, I just couldn't. Fuzzy, I hope you'll get something out of going to school down there. Later dude, won't be the same without ya!

There are a few other great ppl I have met that have left, but never got a chance to know them all that well. I hope they go home safe, and see them in the future!!

As for my friends Lawrence and Sam, thank God they will stick around this summer. Some other people I know who will as well, and at least I got them. Very good and friendly guys to shoot the shit with, and hang out. As for you others...happy trails, I won't forget any of you!!

Should Females Look at My Blog?

I was scanning my posts earlier today, and I have came to conclusion that females probaly wouldn' t like the site of my blogs. First of all, I have a dirty mouth and second of all from all of my complaining about my experiences with girls may scare them a little. I have a few guy friends look at my blog whether they have a membership with blogspot or not, and they like it. This is a place to express opinions and so forth. I have some stories to tell and I like to reminese. As far as females go, I really feel guilty about my behavior on these blogs. I don't mean any disrespect, but I just have had some bad experience with a couple of them. My mom raised me to be a respectful gentleman and I keep it that way. I don't swear in front of them, I am not rude and that is very important. I have to be honest about one thing when it comes between a man and a woman. A Man is very cursed with the fact they need to act cocky in front of women, to have them be interested in them. We all do it, it's the truth. It may work for some, but there are times where a girl may be turned off. I do that quite a bit and sometimes I am suprised how some girls like it. I don't knwo waht it is. I think it is because it will higher their self-esteem if a bad-ass guy gives them attention. Yea, and so they go for the bad boy image too, and that is cool. I am not a bad boy type by any means. It is all just bizzare because it is a you're damned if you are bad-ass, you're damned if you aren't. Oh well, take it one step at a time.

End of the Year Party

I was at a party last night at a house. I somewhat know the guy, and seems really cool. He's from Africa, had another friend there and I was the only white guy there for awhile, shooting the shit, listening to rap music. I must admit, I really fell in love with it. These guys are nice, offered me drinks, but mainly we didn't talk cuz we were enjoying tunes! An hour later, some more of these ppl I know from my dorm came over, and the female abundance was amazing. I suppose if I knew them better I'd have a better time, but we were all getting drunk and conversations weren't taken that seriously. I was in a relationship that sucked the life out of me, and gaining a social life isn't easy. I was dancing, having a good time. I even saw some ppl who I haven't saw for a long time, but they took off to the U Bar instead. Sad thing is I was getting to know a handfull of people that were there, but some are leaving pretty soon for careers or transferring to different schools after the semester is over with. Otherwise, Good to know that this house is always open for me, and more parties to come this summer for those who are going to be lonely up here, taking classes!!

Later on, I wasn't feeling it. I got depressed. Alcohol did it of course and plus I think it was because I invited a friend of mine over, and he got rejected by this one girl. I felt really bad for him. He took off, and just drove around. I was asked to go over to another party across the street, but I just went home instead.

I hope my friend is doing alright. He'll find a girl out there one day, like I will, that won't have a taste for shit!

Working at Newby's

There was this gas station that I worked at near Red Lake Reservation called "Newby's Market." I must tell you, it had to be my favorite job up to this date because I got along with the workers, the boss (my ex-gf's dad) was a good person to work for, and I thank them a lot for having me get a job where nowehere else was hiring, along with the nursing home job that gave me horeshit hours at that time. Havenwood nursing home was alright, liked the work that was involved cuz it was easy, the old people were fun to bullshit with, my grandma lives there and it was always good to see her. I just didn't like how things were ran there cuz the boss hired her alcoholic brother for a cook, and her son along with his smartass high school buddies. Not a good environment with the bullshit politics there. Anywho, Newby's is a great place to work becuase it is not hard, you can snack on food for free, you meet interesting customers and the list goes on. Yea, there are some ugly things going on there. You have people urinating around gas pumps as you lock up the store, bad checks come there and you get bitched at for taking one, filling propane can be a bitch, but hey, rather have that than anything else. I had some alcoholic moron argue with me cuz he thought he gave me a dolalr for a powerball ticket, and he didn't, he actually gave me an old powerball ticket to check. I said i needed his dollar, he was like "I fucking gave you my dollar" with his blood shot eyes glaring at me!! He had to make a big deal out of it when I said he never gave me a dollar. So that poor son of a bitch tries to make my life hell, as he throws his money away on those damn lottery tickets. Maybe if he quits spending money on his pint of brandy everyday, lottery, and so forth, he'd be a happier person. You'll meet the nicest people, and the biggest pricks. I dealt with another asshole once. Funny thing is that dumbshit actually left five bucks on the counter and kept it for myself! The people I work with are nice and willing to say hi, and hang out with me outside of work. The manager there is kind of bitchy at times, and scares the customers away, which isn't good. She got a MA in vet. medicine and manages a gas station job for a living...no wonder she's bitchy! I put up with her shit though, and talk back whenever I need to fend for myself. Yea, I cross the boss there and she won't do a damn thing about it. She tries to make me look bad, but with a simple fuck you, leave me be, she lets me alone! This job taught me to stick up for myself, and let people know that I'm not the type of person to walk all over anymore, like years prior. I'm tired of being kicked around all my life, and now it's time that I show people just how much I am not a pushover anymore!! Don't feel like joining the military to become mentally strong...work at Newby's!! Hell, even though it's my ex-gf's store, I met a girl there who happens to be my ex's firend and she got a job there not too long ago. I really like to get to know her more, she seems nice but very opinionated (sometimes good and bad). She has got these blue eyes that are breath taking. The best thing about her is whenever my ex would bitch about our relationship, she would step in and stick up FOR ME!! She also has given me really good advice whenever I am having a little crisis, and I can't thank her enough. Thing about her is she is really afraid of men cuz her dad was an asshole, so I really don't know how to react or what to be like around her. Right now, she likes a guy who has 2 kids which is kind of a bummer. Oh well, but I still keep trying. My goal is to get her out with me on a quiet weekday at a movie or something!

My Neighbor, the Most Right-Winged Person I Know

Tonight I talked to my neighbor online. He's still in high school and is thinking of joining the marines next year. I wished him luck, and he's really looking forward to it. I hope he does well, considering I felt like I was talking to a future con-artist after the conversation. Reason why he said he wants to join the military is because he wants to kill off a bunch of sand *bleeps*, and continue on being part of the strongest military in the world, nuking airports, federal buildings in North Korea, find ways to steal wealth from Japan/Great Britian. Has a true based knowledge on what to bomb and where, which frightens me cuz he knows so much about bombs. He feels America should take a huge advantage with our military, and let other nations know we are number one, we are not meant to be fucked with, but that does not mean we have the right to fuck with other countries. He also turns to to be very fascist like person by saying we should kill off people who don't agree with Amercia's views. That scares the fuck out of me! Yes, it is good to know I live in a nation where we have a good, solid military. I consider myself a republican because I'm a traditionalist, but not a fucking Hitler-like scum just how he is. I am pro-life by all means, I am very much against our welfare system, I hate hippies. I like we live in a good, democratic nation, but it's people like him who would give the United States a bad name for thinking we should take an advantage of that. Hell, he probaly won't make it. He'll go awoll, be out of the marines and pull some stupid shit like Tim McVie did that peice of shit! Curt, I know you are in the military as well, and I hope I don't offend you any. I just do not like the fact how people take advantage of our miliatry like that, and that just isn't America